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再次证明，
我不适合通电话，
不只是感觉怪怪，
而且我需要冷静思考，
以说出一个完美的答案，
但偏偏脑袋会转不过来，
尤其是空白的时候。


其实，我更想哭。


Just like a torch light,
Is only remembered
when the lights go off.

: )

Love you all，
so much，
my family,
there are,
爸
咪
大姐
二姐
shahmine
婆婆,

以上之外的人，
就不要吵酱多 :)







你使我坚强
也许你也
不知道

be fair,my god

finally it has come,
seems everybody is scared,
although no one said it out,
we are just trying so hard,
to hide our worries,
and keep staying strong.
it's annoying that,
nothing we can do,
expect waiting outside,
and leave her on the theatre,
but have to believe that,
everything will be fine.

4 hours may not be long,
but enough to key us up,
不懂那时的我会怎样，
但是只要还没崩溃，
我也不会想要烦你。




stupid greneagles's doctor!!
and how come the god treats her like that.
be fair..

A visit to NUC again

Went to NUC again with my family
For the uninteresting Open Day last Saturday,
Wanted to experience their “colourful”
university life at first,
But felt deceived when I was there
And found nothing special like joyful activities
Or beautiful babes that could attract me.
Well..They won’t affect my studies..very much.
And I still believe that I have made a right choice
After doing a lot of surveys
About my course and future career.

We set the office as our first stop
when we reached the campus in the afternoon,
Passed up my medical certification
And the certified actual SPM results,
Then had a short conversation with the counselor
That served us before,Jeffrey,
To get some information about the ways
Of applying loan and scholarship,
Luckily we did everything that we wanted that day,
If not so,I had really better spend my weekend at home.

Before leaving,Mum didn’t forget
To remind me to visit the hangar
That I will be studying and working
In the following two years,
Because the hangar was exactly closed
When we were there last time,
Got a chance to meet with some lecturers
And seniors there and I did ask some questions.
In the conversation,heard a senior said that
He almost spend 4 hours per day to do revision..
It's holly shit and shocking :)


The hangar is quite big
But only an aircraft inside.


Thanks to the Indian lecturer
for permitting me to get on.


Cool and narrow cockpit..
Full of a lot of instruments.


Microsoft Flight Simulator X
The game that I just bought
But seems unable to be instaledl.










Please pray for her,
On this Saturday morning,
Just do it and don’t ask me,
Any questions..

Heaven knows

she's always on my mind,
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on
so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine
so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

heaven knows..







Have been attacked again,
By that inexplicable feeling,
While listening to the song,
Tried to type a message,
Thought it would help,
Break the fucking ice,
And rectify every wrong,
Yet found it’s empty,
In my silly little head,
While looking at the name..
Not sure what happened,
Even not willing to find out the answer
that may be unhelpful,
What I’m only clear is
I don’t want to torn apart,
Definitely need some guts,
To bring the truths to light,
It’s not complicated,
Also not very easy..

Just give me a hand,
Save me from the lost mind,
Hold my gushing feelings down,
If you don’t mind.














Need someone to tell me
What I'm doing :)

I'm scared

不做掩饰，
不加修辞，
只是想说，
他妈的他妈的
他妈的他妈的
他妈的他妈的
他妈的他妈的
他妈的他妈的
他妈的他妈的！
天真的不公平！

对我而言，
解决到的事情，
就不会是烦恼，
真正遇到烦恼时，
就是说不出的，
反正不会得到回复，
那就算了。算了。







may God bless you.
All of you..Please.
We shouldn't deny,
and conversely,have to
face it with brave,
but I'm really afraid,
Extremely scared..



november echo echo delta
yankee oscar uniform

harder

Tango Hotel India November Kilo India November Golf
Oscar Foxtrot
Yankee Oscar Uniform



A cool thing that I've just learnt
from the blog of my new friend,
they are alphabets that must be known by
every people who is interested or
work in aviation industry..
because they are the representative code names
which are used to differentiate the aircraft names
and might be the simplest lesson..
Only want to practice or..Show off :)
haha...just have a fun..

I have to practice harder
and study harder.

home

Finally I realize something,
Hope that won't be too late,
Sorry for my unintelligent and inobedient in the past,
Nice to see you were happy,
It is enough and worthy,
And thanks for letting me to sponsor you to travel..
By that stupid way,
Pay you back in five years==

There's no home like the one you've got..
A good point..




Please forgive me if I disturbed you that day..
But that is only what I can do when I am at a loss..


Please bless them,my family.
And......

My declaration xD

Want to win.
Have to win.
I must win.
Try all my best,
Gain the victory again,
And get rid of the shame,
For my own good,
And not disappointing them,
Not allowed to be lazy,
Not allowed to be weak,
Not allowed to be beaten,
In the following two and half years,
Should treasure the last chance,
Should do as well as possible,
To pursue my dream,
To soar in the skies,
To have no regret.

Already promised myself not to
Bring up this topic again,
but still felt ashamed and embarrassed
when the relatives and friends asked me about this.
Like what I've thought before,
First sentence-How many As have you got?
Second sentence-How could this happen?
Third sentence-It is unbelievable.
Fxxx..Start imagining the faces of my family
when they have been asked such stupid questions.
Though they didn't scold or blame me,
Their sound was sad and unsatisfied..

SPM results are not good enough?
Then use the diploma result !!
It’s really the time to carry out
A new change even though
I’ve talked about it many times before.
Anyhow,practicing is more important : )
Trainee,won’t be a excuse for the fall
Of my academic results in my college’s life.
Let’s see and bear this out later.

Besides,I will try to write more bloggies in English
and force myself to speak proper English
As much as possible in the future
Since my English standard is not good.
It’s the only and fastest way to improve,
And increase my capacity of competition.
Welcome any of you to correct me
If I wrote or spoke something wrong.
Your kind help would be appreciated..




Read a short funny article yesterday
From a aircraft magazine which is published
By students in a college in Seremban…
It may be meaningless but enough to make me laugh.

Two planes arrived at flight control
At exactly the same time.
Flight control said: “Delta,Continental,
You both arrived at the same time.
Who wants to go first?”
The Continental pilot immediately heard,
“Go ahead,Delta,I’ll wait”--------End









And last one to say
Thank you ,YEE : )

Letter + SPM

Finally saw the letter from Nilai UC
That I’ve been waiting so long
In my house’s mailbox when I reach home yesterday.
A great portion of the anxieties and confusion disappeared!
The beginning of the letter is “We are pleased to inform you
that you’ve been accepted into Semester 1 of the………….”
However,I know I can’t be happy so fast because
there are conditional offers based on my registration...
The whole process will only be completed after the
Submission of 2 certified true photocopies of my actual SPM results
And a testimonial from a medical practitioner to prove that
My medical and physical situations is fit enough to meet
The Malaysian Qualifications Agency (MQA) requirement.
So..I've gone to the doctor’s this morning for this..
But I didn't get the certificate that I want because
Doctor Lim said that he have no equipment to carry out
The hearing defects check..Have to go hospital later..
But I think I will pass the check easily
Since I have no colour blindness,hearing defects and Asthma,
The problem is the charge is expensive if I do this at private hospital.
You know..The efficiency of government hospitals can't be trusted..

I've just got my SPM results in this morning too.
My results could be said....not very bad..
But quiet disappoint me and my family..
I regret so much because didn't study hard for the exams.
Same to what I expected before..
But the unbelievable news is..
I got A in my English paper..
And B for the 1119(a English paper also)
with my broken and low standard English.
Considering to study abroad If I do well in my diploma.

Last,wanna to do some recommendation,
Augustana-It is the name of the team.
And come from America,I think?
You may find their songs on internet.
Even though are not many,
But all of them are nice to hear,
And they are mixed of Rock and Romance.
Like the background music of my blog-Boston.





Please tell me you’re fine.
That is only what I want to know.
这样的成绩的确令人惊讶，
怎么了，严重退步了吗？
是的。我必须承认我的懒散。
多想找人倾诉此刻的心情，
但是我害怕那一仙的简讯，
再次的石沉大海，
等不到回复 :(

SPM - 18

该来的还是会来，
应该坦然面对，
我坚信这种说法，
但如果说没有担心，
那也是个骗人的谎言，
不管怎样，明天，
成绩还是会放榜的。

我晓得自己变得有多懒散，
我清楚天下没有白吃的午餐，
我不会期望有什么奇迹出现，
我只祈求安全地过关就好，
就ABC各几粒酱，好交差。
以前不懂听了哪个人的话，
说SPM的文凭没人要，
所以不用特别重视，
我忘了一件更重要的事，
需要美的成绩申请奖学金啊，死蠢！
是在骂自己愚蠢，
原谅我的幼稚心理。

他装作很认真地问我：
10个A对你很难咩？
我思考了一会儿，
很诚恳地回答说：
不难，如果我早就醒悟。
对这个问题有些反感，
没听过这样的谚语吗？
小时了了，大未必佳。
不过我更加赞同的是，
不经一事，不长一智。

18岁，标记了人生，
到达了某个成长的阶段，
不应该还是那么地孩子气，
这些普通道理谁不知道？
有尝试在生活上做些改变，
不过维持不了很久，
就会打回原型，
或许我需要些目标，
以时时激励自己。

Frustrated by driving class today.
I couldn't do the parking well :(
Feeling bad even though I know
it was just a learning and practice..
maybe I should be more concentrated.
and try again and again..

SPM results will be released tomorow :(


















《光阴的故事》
ASTRO AEC播放着的连续剧，
没有很大咖的男女主角，
没有很美丽浪漫的景色，
没有起起伏伏的特别剧情，
就只有真实感动的生活故事，
亲情和爱情的完美结合:)

是不错看的。

害怕

我害怕的。
我害怕的。
我害怕的。

天色渐渐变暗，
一个人在外流荡，
是自己不熟悉的地方，
巨大的购物商场，
却没有很多的人，
享用了简单的晚餐，
要找事情做消磨时间，
就往网咖逛逛去，
想打开部落格，
写些东西，
记载心情，
但只是一阵子，
灵感又消失了，
那名字像机关枪的子弹，
不断轰炸我的脑袋，
不做无谓的挣扎，
我投降去了。

今天看了三部戏，
1.Percy Jackson
2.Up in the air
3.大兵小将
说出来不会吓人吧？
感谢樟和我看了两套。

Logan Lerman is....beautiful or charming?


A good and meaningful movie :)


Quiet funny :)

他说：
看见人家成双成对，
自己觉得很羡慕。
我倒是觉得还好，
没有羡慕或妒忌，
就只是想念泛滥了:)

某些时候，
还真的，
害怕一个人。

简单

简单的人，
简单的事，
简单的物，
简单的环境，
简单的生活，
简单的微笑，
简单的沮丧，
不需要理由。
简单的人寻求，
平凡里的不简单。

可以避免问题缠身，
可以保持心情愉快，
这样不好吗？
我视它为一种，
自己的保护程式，
原谅我的装傻扮蒙。


waiting for a letter from college
to give me some more instructions
and guide me out from the confusion.
i'm still waiting but my friend who
did the registration together with me
already received it last friday..
my dear postmen...please do your work.
the letter is important..and important?
ya..have to do a medical check
for the course :)

简单的微笑，
被你偷走了。

脑力激荡

是太久没有使用脑袋？
还是我原本就是愚蠢？
不喜欢这样的状况，
神经线几乎连不起来，
脑海就是一片空白，
无法做一个很好的决定，
尽管我已经不断静坐，
尝试整理自己的思绪，
但我想那不是原因，
我说我需要休息，
她答是休息太多了。

应该是这样。
要找个地方，
有挑战的地方，
有难度的工作，
找回以前的自己，
找回以前的信心。

我怀念了六人组，
连续7小时的开会，
是很好的脑力训练。
我需要脑力激荡！

梦不可怕

昨天的梦里，
我大哭了一场，
起床后却忘记了梦境，
希望它就只是一场梦，
不是所谓的预言。

不管如何，
我会面对，
因为我找到，
我的勇气的来源。

enjoyed working with them yesterday night.
even though the flowers were heavy.
but nice to see and made me happy.
and you know..the PWTC is very big!
from Hall 1 -1m -2 -2a -2b -2c -3 -4 -5..
9 halls we went!

梦不可怕。
辉家很好睡。