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Friday 31 December 2010

803 小总结

2010的最后一天
觉得该做个小总结,
已尽量长话短说,
没有情绪化的文字,
没有优美的句子。


结论就是"0”
Remembered nothing,
because I did nothing,
一大堆东西未被实行,
就如我们常说的,

计划永远赶不上变化,
带着遗憾进入新一年,
算了,但还是要加油,
安安稳稳再过一年。


Out of sight not out of mind,
You want the world,
I'll give you mine,
Cause you're the girl I'll never find
And I'm the boy you've left behind. 

Be careful is always what I want to say.

Wednesday 29 December 2010

801 差点吓死

虚惊一场,
半夜打给父母,
没有通,也没接,
从朋友家冲回去,
发现他们在看戏。

家里手机收线不好,
他们说得轻松,
多么简单的原因,
却让我胡思乱想半小时,
他们不会晓得,
我多么地害怕。

联络不到他们的时候,
我差点打999,
那感觉很熟悉,
但我不喜欢。




The public order is not safe,
it's my reason to feel worried,
especially you are damn beautiful.

Tuesday 28 December 2010

800

刚刚才发现我驾车
其实还狼过我爸,
当然,这不是件好事,
所以我从不死命
要求他们让我驾远门,
因为我知道他们
也有自己的考量。
在目前这个阶段,
能驾到Sepang,
我已经觉得感恩。

今天危险驾驶了,
虽然没有意外发生,
但那杀那,
我还是会想到,
三年前响宴的那事件,
那种熟悉的震撼。
我知道,该自我检讨。


差点出事,
但我不会再发简讯,
给任何一个人,
因为不想家人操心,
或许那人也不会想懂。


今天和程辉
去One U看戏,
在Starbucks闲聊,
那种感觉是舒服
又安全的,谢了。

Sunday 26 December 2010

Hm

2010的第100篇

还有6天,
看来我还是把问题
拖进了第3个年头,
可笑的,可悲的,
我有流浪的疯狂,
却没面对的勇气,
我还是很怕很怕,
这天以后,我更怕,
更不爽,不开心。
对于此事,
我总是不理智,
没有原因,
不是谁的错,
我无可救药。
DL自己学弟,
我幼稚却认真。

祝我妈咪生日快乐。


What if my chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I'm - still holding on



2 years, 2 months, 1 week
798 days in total

Saturday 25 December 2010

Cinderella

给与自己的结论 :
成事不足,败事有余 -
 
 
我不是有求必应,
而是我相信每个经历都会形成经验,
而我需要这些经验,
因为我有很长的路,
很远的目标,
赚到的还会是我


没当副主席以后,
脑袋好像也开始退化,
我不会喜欢这样,
计划拿Aviation Society来做,
当作磨练和复习。

!!!

!!!




还真的挺不爽
酱说话有点白痴,
但我不怕说,
如Dai Bo说的,
So What??

我是他妈的妒忌。
还有不爽。

!!!




感谢李政威
给我的5天4夜:D
还有刚刚的婚礼,
他们久违的重逢,
我们同乐的团友,
很HANDS的感觉。

不用理我讲什么。
不过塞车真的塞到很无聊。

Friday 17 December 2010

芙蓉

不知过了多少个这样的早上,
从梦中睡醒后无所事事,
赖床望着天花板发呆,
按手机上上面子书,
播放自己喜爱的情歌,
打开窗帘看看天空,
说不开心是不准确的,
而是有种落寞,
像是俐君说的,
concert后失落感,
但源头却是不一样。

刻意闹情绪,
我敢大声说我是,
但那是我的个人空间,
你能拿我怎样?:D
渐渐喜欢这种感觉,
情绪低落时特别冷静,
头脑变得特别清晰?
灵感来得特别汹涌?
眼睛张得特别大?
了解的事也特别多。

在衍超家呆了一晚,
我不得不承认,
我更佩服这位老兄了,
人类以高等动物为称,
固以各人独立思想而特别,
这个人是我见过的朋友中,
最“特别”的一个了。




独身于芙蓉Terminal 2 (T2)
Oldtown楼上厨房前靠窗位,
外面有打在路上的绵绵细雨,
对面是外观美丽,里头沉闷的T2。

Thursday 16 December 2010

机场

刚和朋友去了KLIA,
在户外看飞机起飞,
在户内看飞机进闸,
现在人在LCCT,
心情是兴奋的,
即兴买张机票,
跟系友回家乡去?
不是没可能的事,
只要少了一点理智。

考完了EASA执照考试,
两个学期也正式过去了,
享受不是假期的假期,
准备迎接第三个学期,
5科,及格同样要75分,
日子越来越难走,
我知道,但也确信,
我越来越喜欢飞机,
更喜欢蓝天白云。

The sky has no limits.
是很不错的一句话,
要好好记得。

机场的网络快到,
可以打DOTA ,
任你随便下载,
甚至给你看youtube xD

Tuesday 14 December 2010

sok chun

看着过去留过的comment,
很滑稽地问起了自己,
为什么要隐姓埋名?
Anonymous : )
答案一下就找到了,
下午我才跟衍超说,
我是很sok chun的。

欠佳的心情开始好转,
更新部落格再读书去。




只是希望你可以很好很好:)

-

门外有人哼着流金岁月,
门内播放着百听不厌的BOSTON,
心情很像闹钟,
总在这时候变得复杂,
不喜欢这样但无奈那是生活的一部分,
所以选择调整思维接受它,
又一个情绪化的夜晚,
想借文字继续抒发郁闷,
可惜明天还有考试。
对了,我要享受寂静,
是非争执别找我,
只要DOTA照常就好。

Friday 10 December 2010

自然

要了解自己,
要了解别人,
要了解事物,
要了解环境,
因了解而有所行动,
因了解而看清事实。

人生无非就是
理解,体验,和成长,
那不只是呼吸的目的,
而是一个灵的提升,
世界就是我们的教室,
别人是我们的老师,
学了东西就走,
而不留恋于世。

很棒的一句话,
Play life for no regrets
我享受与生活玩乐,
不代表我对它不认真。
最近开始相信自然学,
每件事有它存在的意义,
同样地会经历循环,
同样必须经历时间的摧残,
同样会给不同年代的人们,
不同的震撼,不同的启发。

就算中“头奖”
也要告诉自己,
有得必有失,
有失必有得 : )
不是看得开,
而是清楚自己,
改变不了历史,
却可以影响未来。

Tuesday 7 December 2010

EMO

从没想到短短的几天,
可以让我的情绪暴增,
不用等到夜深人静,
见面也已挤不出笑容,
我不清楚我的烦恼,
只知道我很在乎,
大事小事一切的事。

开始用很奇怪的方式,
表达我奇怪的感觉,
他们说我原本就是奇怪的人,
SMS还是FB MESSAGE,
其实也不在我的计划中。

庆幸没被冲昏了头。

Friday 3 December 2010

自白

手二团公演的第二天,
无聊地坐在KLPAC外
OLDTOWN的一角,
上着网,等着人,
杯子里剩下一点白咖啡,
思绪却是满满的,
连续写了两篇文章,
也几乎停止不了
心里面的自白。

没什么的,
只是在想着
我是怎么的一个人?
又该是怎样的一个人?

在优缺点中寻求平衡,
就很像理性和感性之前
我的婉转处理方式。

此刻,我有太多想说。

翱翔


“仰望天际,
偶然看到飞机在云朵之间穿梭,
在蔚蓝的天空划下一道白色的尾巴,
身穿笔挺整齐的制服,
控制庞大的铁鸟,
载着同样拥有梦想的人,
去到他们所要的目的地,
达成他们的梦想。”

每次看到有关的剪报,
影片,或者到了机场,
打从心理就有股深深的激动,
是的,我的确还在发梦,
看似真实却遥遥不可及,
但感恩它不断在壮大着,
让我确定我在对的路上。
赫然发现科系里很多学生,
同样读着飞机维修工程,
却有当飞机师的志愿,
加上外面的几千,几万人,
要和这么多人竞争和其容易,
不过我说了,我要成功。


Remember,
Strive perfection,with conviction,
High we fly,to the sky.

下个学期就会把电脑里
里面的电影和戏剧删掉,
空余的时间就在宿舍上网,
为自己找些有关资讯更好,
不是吗?狠下心来。

Sunday 14 November 2010

放飞机

从来不在部落格做这些事,
但今天破例给这条老兄xD

陈衍超!!!!!!!!
生日快乐!!!!!!!
生日快乐!!你听到吗?!
哈哈哈哈!!

去年的今天,
好像是和他一起过的,
今年原本也想出来的,
但是计划意外泡汤。

原谅我,
对不起,
还是放飞机了,
不过你习惯了的是?
下次见:D

差劲

我:阿姐要载我吗?
妈:理论上,她不会不载。
我:为什么?
妈:有什么事是她没有做到给你的?

才发现我很差劲,
在各个方面上,
依然很依赖,
依然是半天吊,
让家人操心,
让朋友烦恼。

在埋怨家人不给自己,
18岁该有的权利时,
应当想想自己是否拥有,
18岁该有的样子。
哈。我好像没有:D




那股感觉又来,
我被你吃定了。

Saturday 2 October 2010

世界多美丽

那天从戏里学到一招,
看起来有点白痴,
但很不错的秘诀。

心情不好的时候,
不妨告诉自己:
这个世界多么美丽,
这里空气多么清新 : )

生命中若遇到不平顺,
请不要只记得抱怨,
想想这世界上还有多少
比自己更悲惨的人们,
有时我真的不明白,
唉声叹气有何用处。

我这样坚信着,
一个缺了口的杯子,
只要把它转过来,
从另外一个角度看,
它最终还是圆的,
心境决定环境。

记得美好的一面!

Friday 24 September 2010

分享

这里说要尽量省电话费,
那边却担起了联络的责任,
另外介入别的社团的事物。

有人问我:这些工作,
没有其他人可以做了吗?
我承认我有少许的八卦,
但如果有人解决了问题,
我需要为自己找麻烦吗?
我就有这么的一个怪癖,
就是无法眼睁睁地看着
不应该发生的情况发生,
所以我选择站出来。

首先,当然我清楚知道,
什么是帮忙,什么是干扰,
这其实不是什么请教,
而是一种经验上的分享,
避免错误再次发生,
避免遗憾再次降临,
同时确保事情顺利完成,
还是我抱着的态度。

如果一封15仙的简讯,
可以减少不必要的麻烦,
或可以帮到别人解决疑问,
说到底,我还是愿意的。
续上篇的-人因分享而得果,
我说,分工又有何大碍呢?
我还要感谢有这样的人,
让我同时获得成长的机会,
幸运的不是他们,而是我,
是我坚信的。

嗯。还是会努力省电话费。
最近的生活充满醋意 : )

Monday 20 September 2010

变态?


听见朋友说我变态,
虽是带点玩笑的嘲弄,
也引人带入一番深思。
可笑地,我承认我的思想
偶尔会稍微格外不同,
但那不就是人生吗?
用不同的眼光看待
不一样的人事物,
以追求更多的真理。

安静,不代表没话说,
安静对我不寻常,
不动,不代表没想法,
不动对我不常见,
吃亏,不代表没头脑,
吃亏是一种学习,
闪缩,不代表没胆量,
闪缩是自我保护。

First,don’t give thought
to something with your only mind
in your brain or else 
you will be trapped.
Second,don’t judge someone
with your stupid feeling
in your first sight or else 
you will be beaten.
By the way,abnormal  is such
a cool adjective for me.

不是想给自己辩护,
只是想分享我的心情,
人因分享而得果
八卦也是种对周围
的关心和理解



刚驾车之前,
又想到发简讯出去,
老实说,我很怕,
不是怕死,而是
怕自己带着遗憾死,
但是想想,算了吧,
无端端发这样的简讯,
这才叫着变态xP
无论如何,安全到了!

Tuesday 14 September 2010

周杰伦

在闷热的午后, 
一边听周杰伦,
一边上网, 
是在虚度光阴, 
但心情还不错, 
歌曲不断播放,
感觉也一直循环。 
 
 
 
开不了口
就是開不了口 讓她知道
我一定會呵護著妳 也逗妳笑
妳對我有多重要 我後悔沒 讓妳知道
安靜的聽妳撒嬌 看妳睡著 一直到老
就是開不了口 讓她知道
就是那麼簡單幾句 我辦不到
整顆心懸在半空 我只能夠 遠遠看著
這些我都做得到 但那個人已經不是我
 

Sunday 12 September 2010

练习

与其发表无谓的解释,
还不如静静地聆听,
并加以少许头脑运用,
毕竟那种感觉,
需要自己去寻找,
我是这样认为,
PASSION !

今天最大的收获
是在他那番话上,
不是爱好,
而是专业。
很好的一点,
该被牢牢记住的。

把那两年减少,
应该不是梦 : )

火!来!烧起来!
Take you passion
and make it happen.

Saturday 11 September 2010

忆星巴克

坐在石好后面的星巴克,
想念着Border的书味,
听大姐说它已经关了,
但还是有些后悔,
没有先过去看看。
回来说说戏院旁的这里,
人群不断在旁边穿梭,
还有偶尔的高谈阔论,
不是我喜欢的环境。

点的饮料还是没有变,
Mocha Fracpuccino,
只是没有加巧克力粉,
因为店员把奶油放的太满,
我担心开盖会弄脏双手。

在面子书上逛了一阵,
想想我不如下载电影,
启动了电驴下载软件,
开始东摸摸,西找找,
最后头脑想到的只有
Night in the Museum 2,
应该没有什么,我说。

在乎的仍然在乎,
不想理的却还在理,
我知道感觉不能吃饱,
但它是一种精神能量,
感恩它不断壮大着。
有些事情珍贵的,
不是最后完美的结局,
而是记忆的逐渐累积,
足以让你在以后回想时,
不禁扬起嘴角,如题。

最近经常为手机加额,
穷到接近某个危险水平,
庆幸妈妈没有责怪什么,
只是好奇电话费用在哪了?
一,电话不重要我不打,
二,无谓的信息我不回,
这两招还是行不通?
或许我该换回Maxis了: )
我这不停换号码的家伙!

Tuesday 7 September 2010

我等着10月

清楚自己的身份,
扮演自己的角色。
没有什么应该
还是不应该。

两年,
感觉依旧,
只是心态不断变化。
 

7 Sep 10

It has been a long period of time
since I last renewed my blog here
because of the non-stop exams
and activities.

But now I think all is over,
at least I got a chance
to have a short holiday,
until 15th of September,then I'll be going back
to Nilai for three-day EASA examination.
Holiday again after that?Yes !
So,I will be in KL recently,
anyone who is interested to hang out
can just give me a ring.

Emm..Things getting worse.
Not even making calls,
I think I'm becoming lazy to sms,
so if you did not hear any about me one day,
please do not feel strange,
find me on facebook xD

Sentence of the day:
说得好,不如做的对: )

Wednesday 25 August 2010

兴糠2 号。

最近读到这样的一个故事:
很久以前流传着一种说法,
说在这世界上有两个我,
意思是在地球的另一端,
有一个跟自 己样貌相同,
情绪脾性都几乎百分百相似
的人在生活着,
我们永远无法见到对方,
因为当你见 到对方时,
其中一个人就会在
这地球上消失。
其实我不迷信,
但我此刻有种冲动,
如果这故事是真 的,
我想见见他,
和他聊聊对自己的看法,
或着看看他是否
和我一样失败也好。

 兴糠2 号。
你在吗?

Monday 16 August 2010

不中用

打了一大堆的字,
还不如把它们删掉,
来个直接的--如题。

不中用。

不是想抱怨什么,
也不想说一些会更
使自己情绪低落的话,
只是觉得说今天该被记住,
没有什么的特别,
自己晓得就好。

成功熬过了
情绪不好的大半天,
放下了以往的成见,
看了一部荒谬没有意思,
但是令人 哈哈大笑的电影,
心情有好很多: )

最后感谢那位在电动火车里,
叫我起身的外劳先生,
他让我更加坚信我的某些想法。
ps.如果没有他,
我大概睡到芙蓉去了。

Friday 13 August 2010

-

其实问题
不只是那些,
也许我
从上到下,
从头到脚,
从内到外,
都需要改变。

给我一些时间,
重新摸索自己,
了解自己,
一切重新来过,
不迟不迟。
I have learned a lot of things today
from an old friend who is in US now.
Thanks for showing me your changes.

: )

Just changed a new picture
for the background of my title,
you might say it doesn't look nice,
but I just think it can make my readers
much easier to understand my feeling.
As you can see in the picture,
there are drum,aircraft,stars,
white clouds and blue skies
which I like most..
Yes..It's my recent life.

Life is becoming
colourful and interesting.

Sunday 8 August 2010

exams

不清楚是事实,
或是自己的错觉,
仅仅过了7天,
觉得课业和练习,
难度已经升到某个
仿佛自己随时
会跟不上的程度,
不喜欢这样的感觉。

最近的生活大概
就是考试和考试,
当然我佩服自己,
在这非常时期,
还可以坐在电脑前,
逍遥地一边慢慢思考,
一边慢慢敲打着键盘,
但感恩只有这活动,
能够让我保持
那仅剩的冷静。

Assessment 3(August)
Final Exams(August - Sep)
EASA Exams(Sep)
Assessment 1(October)
Assessment 2(November)
Final Exams(December)
EASA Exams(December)
Hands Exams(December)
不会有休息,
实在太棒。

I need a healthier life
and a flexible time table
for my studies and practice.
emm..right..

传言成真,
不努力都不行,
不想被新人淘汰。







You know?
That's why I'm always on facebook.
But I thought you will say,
just call : (

Saturday 7 August 2010

klpac

要看晚上八点的演出,
也不知自已怎么在
两个小时前就到现场,
给自己找了一些借口,
例如:看慕义他们的展览,
或者我可以到处走走?
最终造就我独自地
坐在KLPAC大厅吹冷气,
用着它的无线网络…

对这个地方,
我是充满回忆的,
观众席上看表演数次,
在台上表演也有数次,
穿梭于后台的通道,
围绕着建筑跑圈,
坐在湖边看鱼赏天,
铁丝椅旁发号施令。

想起刚走路进来,
遇见程辉的车,
他从车里探出头来,
说的几句话,
虽然自己听清楚的,
就只有表演两个字,
但那就是重点…

I like KLPAC xD
Waiting for a chance to
return to the stage,
it might take a long time,
but I just add oil.Try.

Sunday 1 August 2010

4天

与鼓同在的4天生活,
除了挫折感甚重之外,
还得到一番新的体会,
我说这是好的事情,
翘课也是值的,
嗯,入团后的
首次表演结束。

谢谢载送过我的每位。
谢谢小阙。

听到了些东西,
看到了些东西,
影响我不浅。
感谢。继续。
今天练习不错。

将挫折转化为力量。
请 : )

Wednesday 28 July 2010

后路

今天一早精神恍惚,
不小心把一封收在draft里面
很久了的简讯传出去,
两个字-love you
加一个笑脸,
5位收信人,
庆幸家人收到以后,
没有觉得奇怪而拨电来。

某些朋友可能知道,
嗯,就是那一封,
原本是用来预防万一,
是万一我遭到不测的遗言,
我没有发神经,
而是认真的 : )


我随便找了个理由,
没有承认或否认,
也没有说声抱歉,
因为我要给自己留条后路,
有些话,我喜欢面对面说,
尽管对方可能已懂。

Monday 26 July 2010

我是童军

刚在面子书上,
发现民义童军团
昔日的一些照片,
才记得自己原来
曾经是个童军,
这是很够力的,
无法原谅自己。
我没有百感交集,
但心里有些感觉
在不断起伏着。

记忆回到很久以前,
刚刚入团的时候,
后来离团的时候,
第一次操步的时候,
指导人操步的时候,
第一次比赛的时候,
训练人比赛的时候,
当副队长的时候,
当队长的时候,
三次比赛,
两次全国冠军,
想起自己荣誉徽章,
想起自己那套制服,
想起野外烹饪,
想起3分钟搭营,
想起密码传递。

我不想用“一日童军,一世童军”
这句话来欺骗自己,
是的,我想我做错了决定。
6 years of scouting life?
Actually it should be more.
But it's late now : (
Sorry guys,
I should say this 3 years ago.

Saturday 24 July 2010

习惯

最近的心情反复无常?
不是伤心,不是忧心,
只是偶尔会自责起来,
在这世界上活了18年,
没有很久,我知道,
还有很长的路要走,
也因为这大段距离,
所以我不能倒下,
可以做些什么?

刚看回好朋友的文章,
和她的聊天分享,
加上自己的一些领悟,
发现自己欠缺的,
就是那么的一份坚持,
没有意志力,是事实。
我只好从头开始,
把对的一切养成习惯,
不晓得是否有帮助,
但不能不试。
不希望会有下篇的存在,
自己也会说厌,听厌 : )

Oh ya,bought a metronome
and a drum pad yesterday,
hope they can help me a lot
in improving my drumming skills
in the following time :)
PK already,have to save up for
more movies and a vacation.
On an island ? Beach?
White sand ? Blue sea?
Blue sky ? White clouds?
Wow.That's really great xD

Thursday 22 July 2010

目标!

凌晨三点钟,
我总是喜欢在
这个时间写部落格,
夜深人静,
自己也会变得平静。

我说了。
我有远大的目标。
20/8 Last day of classes
25-25/8 Revision
18/8 - 8/9 Examination week
9-17/9 Semester break
15-17/9 EASA examination
没有什么可以再阻止我,
不是吗?此刻火烧得很旺。

Results for the assessments this time.
Maths-12.9/15
Physics-13.8/15
Aerodynamics-12.9/15
Electrical-12.3/15
全部都退步了: (
请把这次记住!


手机的音乐,
刚刚才停止播放,
《有多少爱可以重来》
朋友介绍的一首歌,不错,
这朋友,更不错,
用好来形容,也不足够 : )

Sunday 18 July 2010

三天

这星期回吉隆坡,
把其中的两天,
给了鼓队老鸟,
前天-文玮家,
昨天-阿樟家,
吃喝玩乐到深夜,
围在一起谈话,
互相嘲笑和愚弄,
都是熟悉的朋友,
这感觉是很好的,
我很享受,
未来的日子,
请继续联系。

ps*我是一只小小鸟
我们鸟人团的团歌,
是否一致通过?
再次感谢凯彬
家瀚及阿樟的载送 : )



嗯,某些话题,
我真的不愿意讨论,
别怪我敷衍,
因为对方是我
愿意用尽一切方法
去保护的好朋友。


——————————
第三天(今天)

练习要了我的命,
信心-它跑路了,
但放心,火还猛烧,
我有远大的理想 : )
极度需要Metronome,
还有drum pad,
又得花多少了?
不过值得的。

他:
“你今天吃了什么药?”
“拍子走完的?”
“上次练习很好的?”
我无言以对,
只能苦笑 : )

Friday 16 July 2010

电话

原以为在朋友家里,
我不会有上网的欲望,
但心里的那份情绪,
还是成功控制了自己。

没有人可以逼我改变,
我不会无端端主动
打电话给朋友,
因为在电话里聊天,
感觉实在太怪。

我知道。
我按下了拨号健,
你不一定要接,
但你绝对不知道,
我此刻在想什么。


在文玮家,
煮着西餐,
为他欢送,
未来的牙医。
和中华鼓手在一起,
是开心的,
做白痴我也愿意:)

Sunday 11 July 2010

Broga Hill

First of all,thanks to Hands and everyone
who joined us at Broga Hill this morning
for making the hiking event a great success.
It was really awesome and memoriable for me
since this was the first time I joined Hands Club's event
with an identity as Hands Trainee.
Gathering with other trainees at the bus stop near
our practice venue,Chong Hwa Independent High School
at 4.15am this morning,then "flying" to the Oldtown cafe
which is in Taman Midah,Cheras in 15 minutes time with high speed,
meeting some old friends and seniors there as well,
travelling to the Broga Hill together with another 23 cars,
hiking in the dark,viewing the nice scenery besides inhaling fresh air,
after that going down to the foot of the hills
and had a photography session lastly,
those really made me excited!

Not to forget,Chong Hwa's drummers,
after hiking just had a "tea time" at Oldtown and
"Bak Kut Teh" in Manjarala as "Breakfirst" with them.
Guys,I could hardly speak in defense of myself
but please forgive me for not hiking together with you all.

Oh ya..My teammates in trainees
gave me a new nickname today-
Super Junior~Don't laugh,okay?
Just because I'm the youngest among them.
I do enjoy become the youngest one,
but I'm not going to dance Sorry Sorry :)


Broga Hill,I will come back
for the sunrise one day.
除了喜爱的天空之外,
没有拍到什么特别的照片,
但美丽的回忆是在心里,
今天的心情应该不错。

Friday 9 July 2010

奇怪

让自己放肆了一整天,
才发现那杀那的满足感,
远远无法和过后的后悔平衡,
知道这样的话是没有意义的,
但庆幸我找到对的人,
把它说出来,
她说的没有错,
我该记得这种感觉。
非常感谢,朋友 : )
目标,目标,目标。













刚刚出现不安,
不安的源头不变,
或许我该潇洒点,
缩春?过了今晚,
我相信我不再是,
You just need to know,
I'll be the last one.


奇怪的一天
突然想喝livita
那感觉又溢出了。

Monday 5 July 2010

给我力量!

原以为我成长了些,
自制能力也强了些,
可惜这只是幻觉,
浓烈的感觉和冲动,
一次次地冲击,
结果还是战输了,
不断告诉自己,
要撑下去啊,
现在?撑个屁。
考试又在逼近了,
桌上还有不会做的功课,
要读的也还没动过,
减少电脑时间?难。

需要力量!
我还能期待什么?
总之不是精神饮料。
不是Nescafe Ice,
不是Livita。

You don't know me.
And you don't even care.
Boston-百听不厌,
因为有强烈的共鸣。
这星期活动丰富,
参观军事飞机博物馆,
机场逍遥游,
和手爬山去。

Friday 25 June 2010

sensonic

昨天在有人的告知下,
才知道我买了一年的耳机,
可以听到贝斯(BASS)效果,
不晓得以前我为何没发现,
管他,重点是我重新爱上了,
爱上了这曾经被我冷落
的蓝色SENSONIC。

上完课,戴上它,
听着最近迷上的英文情歌,
走回房间的路上,
世界再次以我为中心,
容不下其他的人事物,
不是自闭,
但是我享受,
享受这种平静。

多么希望你不忙,
这样我们就可以聊久些,
遗憾的是,出现了空白,
我不知如何开口是好。


-No Boundaries(Kris Allen)
-Crush (David Archuleta)

Thursday 24 June 2010

习惯

突然的跳电,
让我原本,
写到很爽的文章
付之东流,
没话了,
简约些。

我得加油。
把坏习惯删去,
而该保留的,
还是会保留。

我说
我没有沉迷于面子书,
但那是我的一种习惯,
习惯于每天都想知道,
我关心的朋友的消息
: )

Tuesday 22 June 2010

21 JUNE

边听《Boston》,
边看以前写过的文章,
看完-除了微笑,
也只是一份感慨,
不能说什么。
过去了。

有些事情在改变中,
那是好的,我确信,
而始终如一的,
还是同样,
静静的,
我说算了,
不去碰它,
我害怕那种刺激,
我害怕弄巧反拙。

说过要减少上网,
最终还是控制不了,
幸好考试成绩不错,
放弃也需要时间,
所以他选择继续,
偶尔来点情绪低落,
好像也很不错。

Can't let you touch all that's inside
Don't get too close to me,
Don't get too close to me
Can't let me feel what I can't hide
Don't get too close to me,
Don't get too close to me
-from Beau Bristow


Even a Hello with a smile
will cause me die.

Sunday 20 June 2010

还是那么弱,
哭了吧?

不会忘记的,
我告诉自己,
我又成长了,
必须成长。
请放心。

对不起

父亲节快乐,
最后都没有说出口,
是真的那么的难吗?
没有答案。对不起。
但别怀疑我对这个家的爱。
我很珍惜这个家。

但我就是表达不出来。
可笑。一个敢在几百位
陌生人面前发言的人,
竟然对自己熟悉的人,
说不出那么简单的几个字。










果然,能影响我情绪的人,
还在继续影响这我,
经过一整晚的梦,
我知道我逃不了。
我很在意。

Monday 14 June 2010

: (

快疯了:  (

祈祷~
在这星期的小考,
我不会死到很惨,
拜托,我不想重考,
更不想重读这些科目。

发泄完,继续和它拼过,
Electrical Fundamentals~

Tuesday 25 May 2010

say no!

Starting from today,25th May,
No more Blogging and
No more Naruto for me
except there's something special
until semester break in September.

Now I realize that time is not sufficient
and exams are coming in three weeks time.
Perhaps I should cut on Facebooking too xD

Sunday 23 May 2010

Emo

Out of MOOD !






Stay strong too,
S.K TANG,
I whispered.

Wednesday 19 May 2010

Movie night

What a fucking movie night.

In the first place,I have to say sorry
to all counselors and advisers in advance
because of the first sentence above.
However,I just didn't like and not enjoy
the horror movie you played for us
in the movie night today which is part
of the three-day orientation programme.
As first I thought you would have played
a funny or zany comedy since
we were so many people and
there're quite some girls inside
but you were not lar!!
So,did you notice that a lot of girls
even boys left the lecture hall in the middle way?

I only don't like bloody and violence.
Anyhow,you hard work is appreciated :)

keep on chattering xD





Okay.It's time to sleep now
or else I won't manage to wake up
tomorrow morning for the first lecture
at hangar,8am!!!

Tuesday 18 May 2010

可笑

“我等着的是个不可能?”
“你等什么?”
“人”
“对,不可能。”
“我条件很烂?”
“不是。。。。。”


可笑的人,
问了个可笑的问题 : )

1st day(Official)

Yup,I've had a nice time today xD
Went to the lecture hall - L203
together with other new students
from different courses this afternoon
for a joyful sharing session which is
related to a fulfilled campus life
and we had some ball games afterwards,
for examples,tennis,basketball,
table tennis and such..

I just enjoyed playing table tennis
with DaYao and RongShen although
I didn't know how to play it..
Who cares,right?It's just fun!
At night,there's a fellowship time
held by the counselors and student helpers,
we were split into many small groups,
soon started playing game also,
it's enjoyable,funny but tiring.
What's my group name?Jipsaw!

Received a SMS from Kah Han
two hours ago which asked me :
"Met any hot girls?"
"Nooooppppeeee"
So I answered like this,
I haven't seen any these fews days.
What a pity,my buddy :(



"Guys give love to get sex,
Girls give sex to get love"

An impressive saying from Lina.
(The lisenced counselor and "Pak Tor"logist of NUC)

Pathology = "Pak Tor"(Cantonese)logy

Monday 17 May 2010

1st Lecture

What a lovely and warm day :)
Yes,I've only just come back
from my first lecture at NUC
which is a simple introduction
and interpretation of my course.

Well..The head of department said a lot
but the things I still remember is only
"You would be having many exams and exams
and you must get at least 75% to pass for both
Diploma's exams and EASA's lisence..."  LOL
Scared?Definitely I'm not scared,
just a bit worried :)

Okay..That's all for now and
I have to go for a sharing,games
and a orientation night
in the following time.





"You have to carry yourself like a pilot,
because if you make a mistake on a plane,
you would kill everybody on it"
From the head of department,
I think his is called Kunalan Marimuthu xD

Boy

Sometimes,I'm thinking that
maybe they're just right,
there's no any chances
or miracles between us
and you'll just disappear
from my mind one day.

Not sure when it'll be,
tomorrow?next month?
next year?next decade?
Well..I don't care about this
but what I want to say is
please don't ignore me :(

It's hurtful,friend..
Or you even don't treat me
as a friend of yours?
Tell me the truth.




It has been raining lightly for two hours,
it's now lovely and cool,also pleasing,
maybe I should just remember today,
the first rain for me since I came Nilai.
Yes..I know..I'm brainless.

等待一个不可能。

Saturday 15 May 2010

Full of love 3


Full of love and care
from my dear household.
Guess what?To be sure,
all of these are my things,
but I'm not going on vacation,
is only moving into my hostel
for my first term at NUC.





Sometimes,you might feel like
you are just useless
while everyone is busy for you
where they actually don't need to do so.

Thursday 13 May 2010

Full of love 2

Shame on you!
Sorry doesn't mean anything.
You're just a wastrel.
useless and childish.
Just stop critizing others
but examine yourself often.

Hoping you'll be growing up
and becoming more mature
when living alone outside.



Sometimes,
I really hate him,
a guy who is called
S.K Tang :)

Monday 10 May 2010

Full of love

Sorry.

Thank you.

and

Sorry.




Need some persistence
to carry out a change.

Happy parents day.

Brainless

Who don't know I'm acting impetuously?
But the feeling is right at least,
so please tell me why I should give up?
Truely,I'd rather suffer than deceive myself.
So?In brief,there is no need for me
to think again..Perhaps no reasons too.
However,thanks for all of your advice.

I say,
Yes,I like it :)




Ya,I went to the hairdresser's
at Mutiara for a hair cut last Friday,
and my hair is super short now,
I'm not sure whether it is nice or not,
but it's new and fresh,to be sure.
Lastly,six days left to go,
let's rock and roll xD
Preparation before that?
Alarm clock?Bed linen?
Toiletries?Stationery?
OMG..I have a lot of things to buy ><

Have to work out again
after a five-month rest.

Tuesday 4 May 2010

幸康,兴糠还是倖慷?

上周六去了适耕庄,
让人批名,吃海鲜,
那据说被神明附身的女士,
解释了我现有的名字后,
建议把名字换成-倖慷==
意味着要人要幸福及慷慨,
其实我就只是听听,
没有真正想改名的念头,
应为我很喜欢-兴糠,
这个价值三百块的名字>< 我人生中的第二个名。 不过,这女士真的很神奇, 她只须要通过名字, 就能把人看透透, 把我们每个人的特征, 脾气,命运都说中了, 彻底除去了我原先的怀疑。 别说我夸张, 信不信也由你。 她说我就像是松鼠, 爬树是可以爬到很高, 可是如果遇到危险, 就会马上跑掉。 就是说如果事事顺利, 我一定可以成功, 不过如果遇到问题, 我就会逃避到远远去, 我喜欢这个比喻:) 她又说我是一支柱子, 不管发生什么事, 我就只会木木地站在哪里。 就是说,不管人家在骂我, 说我坏话还是批评我, 我就只会站在那里, 不会给任何反应。 我说这样很好啊, 不为他人所动><
个人觉得满准的。

听完,突然想到一个画面,
一只松鼠在爬柱子。。。。
我很有想象力,也无聊 T_T
但她给的比喻很有连结性。
其余的就不说了。所以总结?
幸康,兴糠还是倖慷?
当然是邓兴糠!

也许事实就是如她所说的,
我尚欠坚强的勇气。


I have to acknowledge that
It's quite hard for me
to utter those words,
"I love you?" Yuck..
but please believe it,
I love you guys..

Yeah..Finally it's coming,
the report day for my course,
I'll be moving in the hostel
in ten days time..

Friday 30 April 2010

《说谎-林宥嘉》

是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡 让人家不安
才会结果都阵亡
我没有什么阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱 何况那算什么伤
反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你懂我的 我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎 请别以为你有多难忘

消失真的不是我逞强
我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口闻得到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象
我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你知道的 我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎 是很感谢今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不习惯
我没有说谎 我何必说谎
爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样
别说我说谎 人生已经如此的艰难
有些事情就不要拆穿
我没有说谎 是爱情说谎 它带你来
骗我说 渴望的有可能有希望
我没有说谎 祝你做个幸福的新娘
我的心事请你全遗忘




或许你并不认真,
但我记得我答应过,
不再对你说谎。



I got a Digi voucher from my mum
the day before yesterday which gave me
a caller tune for free in the first month.
So,without thinking too much,
I quickly followed the instructions
on the voucher and finally chose this
as my caller tune after hesitating
for quite some time.

look,I treat you guys so well.
Just enjoy the song when
you phone me next time :)

Saturday 24 April 2010

The 200th


Time has passed very fast indeed.
Unconsciously,I've been using this new blog
for approximately one year..Congratulations :P
Looking over at the 'history' section
on the left-hand side,
I've only just noticed that the post which
I'm typing at the moment is already the 200th.
It's quite exciting,huh?Applaud for it xD
Due to the reasons above,
I've decided to make this post
to be more extraordinary,how?
Maybe do a personal introduction here?


Okay..Where should I start?
It should be my designation first for sure!
Well..My full name is Tang Shing Kang,
I named myself Edison when I was in primary school,
I have to admit I used to admire Edison Chan,
the Hong Kong's artist,a long time ago before
he was drawn into the nude photos upheaval,
so stop making fun of my nickname from now.
Ya..Some of my friends call me Smiling,
Why?You might be asking about this too.
Actually it is because they found me like to smile :)


I was born at midnight on 27th October 1992
at Hospital Bersalin Kuala Lumpur,
so obviouly I'm 18 years old this year
and my sign of the zodiac is scorpio,
(I'm so proud to be a scorpio..hahas.)
Blood group is O positive,I think,
Height 170cm and weight 57kg,
I'm considered as fit,they told me,
but I always deem I'm not high enough
and should still go on a diet..
What queer mentality I have :O
Anyone wants to see my appearance
Just proceed to my facebook or friendster.


Then how are my personalities?
Without doubt,I will say I'm friendly,
kind,quite generous and good fun.
You are already laughing there now?No!!
That means you don't really understand me yet.
I'm certain that you will be in favor with me if you do.
Of couse there are also some negative characters
like lazy,unreliable and I usually don't show
my feelings easily especially when I'm
in front of those who I meet for first time.
Oh ya..I'm sensitive and sentimental sometimes.


I can hardly tell you what my hobbies are
because I'm always interested to learn new things
and practice old things,but what I'm sure is
I love drumming..emm...and also dreaming.
Enjoy listening songs but not singing,
Enjoy watching movies but not acting,
Enjoy reading books but not writing,
Enjoy photographing but not drawing,
Enjoy speaking but not shouting @!$#%


Don't forget to introduce my house as well,
I come from a fairly comfortable family,
I have five members in my family,
if the daughters of my sister is not included.
There are my parents,my two sisters and me
after the leaving of my grandmother.
Each person is interesting in his own way
and takes a important place in my heart,
but I take after my father at most,
respect my mother at most,
grateful to my big sister at most,
Worried about my second sister at most.


Lastly,let's talk about my ambition,
I'm a guy who love blue skies and white clouds,
so that I've always aspired to be part
of the aviation industry in Malaysia.
The occupations I'm now aiming for
are aircraft engineer and commercial pilot
which need a lot of knowledge and professionalism.
To persue my dreams,I'll have to study hard
in the following two and a half years
in Diploma of Aircraft Maintenance Engineering
at Nilai University College starting from May.
I pray with all my heart that my dreams
will become a reality and not remain
just another of my boyish fantasies.

So..This is me : )
Sorry for wasting your precious time
to read this introduction that you may be
uninterested to know..anyway.
Thanks everyone who has supported me all the way.



The End








There's no need for you to know about me,girl,
but please give me some chance to understand you.

Thursday 22 April 2010

中庸之道

Read something cool just now
from a chinese magazine,
and I'm so impatient to post it on my blog,
no matter you agree the words below or not,
but I just want to share it with you all.

Never be too smart and never be so stupid,
Never be too rich and never be so poor,
Never be too happy and never be so sad,
It wouldn't be the the best,
It wouldn't be the worst.
It wouldn't be a matter,
This's what I think.



符合我的中庸之道,
如我我坚持的,
生活是用来享受,
而不是不断拼命。

再笑一个 : )

Monday 19 April 2010

Unimportant writing

It's time to expose the truth
which is related to the last post :)
You could now stop seeing this
if you're not interested to know
since this is also an unimportant writing.
But for me,I think it's necessary
to be recorded in my blog,
as part of my memorable stories.

I was so excited these days,
I finally got a new laptop PC,
after looking around for a good few hours,
and checking for the best price,
alone,in the first day of PIKOM PC Fair,
so,do you have any idea?Guess what!
The Toshiba which I kept mentioning
in the previous posts is the brand of my laptop!LOL
TOSHIBA SATELLITE L510,its full name.


Above all,want to say thank you,
to my two sisters for buying me the stuff,
as what they had promissed before,
I'm really grateful to them very much.
It's hard to express my appreciation in fews lines,
but please trust me,I will treasure it,
take good care of it,and make it
as an encouragement for me to study hard,
not to disappoint any of you all
who have paid for me..Thanks again :)
Must try hard to get the scholarships and loan!
Must Must Must!


Coming with a powerful Intel Core I3 processor,
Genuine Window 7 Home Premium,
4GB RAM and 320GB Hard disk,
this notebook is fast and sufficient for
an ordinary college student like me.
Summarily,I can now download coursewares,
do my projects and assignments,
even catch up with my friends on
Facebook,MSN or blog by using the it.


Besides,happy and got surprized too
because my eldest sister had also bought
a new camera for us at the PC Fair,
12 Megapixel - A standard one for beginner.
But I still prefer to use mobile phone for shooting,
it's still more convenient,isn't it?
Hoping Nokia will produce some more functional phones
that have high megapixel camera like Satio
and high-speed WIFI provided in the future.


I've captured some photographs of my new baby.
They will be uploaded next time due to some reason.






Oh ya..Encountered some friends recently,
from the conversations,found that most of them
who are already doing their further studies
seemed to be enjoying their new school life,
definitely,I'm envious of them.
Then you might be asking how is mine?
Emm...One month left to go!
The course commencement which
I've been waiting for quiet some time
till my neck has also become long
will be held on 16th of May.
Started imagining the situation,
with big hangar,real airplane,
cosy lecture rooms,funny lecturers,
capable classmates,good ambience,
cool uniforms and well-prepared me,
have to believe that it'll be a colourful college life :)


Need some more information
advice and also experiences..