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Fxxx.
Today is the worst day in my life.

Life and Choices

Life is about making choices.
It's simple enough, you make a choice,
you don't look back but keep yourself moving forwards,
keep making another best choice instead of reacting to life.
Yeah, sometimes it's a painful decision making, it does hurt,
both you and the people surrounding you,
yet it's now the way of the World and survival.
Some people might think it's a betrayal, disrespect or whatsoever,
I say it's a transformation, a progress towards a better prospect,
or a striving for a better YOU that you dream to be,
in response to the changes happening around us,
every day, hour, minute or even second.

Not so long ago, I have read a very good sentence
in a blog of my friend's, he's a wise and smart guy,
he said, "Life is ever so wonderful and sorrowful.
Life is sometimes unbearable and uncontainable."
Yes, I'm here back to life that we always talk about.
To be frank, it's really funny to see a guy
throwing a wet blanket on his friend,
asking the latter one to change his life,
resign from his work for any reason.
Well, I always think that we have no the rights to do so,
to interfere with other people's plans. What for?
It's his life and he knows what is best for him.

In my case, I certainly know what I want
after failing so many people and things,
maybe I have hurt someone in the process,
I say sorry then. So sorry. Nothing than sorry.
Few more hours to the final lap,
I don't know how it will turn up,
however, I will just try my best,
for my sake and of course my family.
I hope I can get a very good birthday present
and Christmas present for them.
I know I didn't treat popo well
when she was still around, but tonight,
I hope she could appear in my dreams
and give me some blessings. HAHA. Yeah.
Shame on "ME".

HD 417

The clock on my desk shows it's 2:20am now
where I should be studying like hell actually
for the last paper of my final examinations.
Despite that, I still feel like writing something on my blog,
okay, I wish I won't come back to this room
or even this faculty after I check out tomorrow.

Even though it's a little risky to put all my hopes on that
but I more than believe that I'll eventually get it,
achieve it and hold it tight in my hands soon, very soon.
I'm putting all eggs in a basket, as a Chinese saying goes,
break the caldrons and sink the boat! 破釜沉舟。
No more castle in the air and no more tragedy.

I'm gonna miss this room, HD417,
I would say I was lucky to have owned
the biggest room in Dahlia hall with nice balcony xD

Am learning not to care about what the others say,
I live for my own and, of course, my family.