.

Fxxx.
Today is the worst day in my life.

Life and Choices

Life is about making choices.
It's simple enough, you make a choice,
you don't look back but keep yourself moving forwards,
keep making another best choice instead of reacting to life.
Yeah, sometimes it's a painful decision making, it does hurt,
both you and the people surrounding you,
yet it's now the way of the World and survival.
Some people might think it's a betrayal, disrespect or whatsoever,
I say it's a transformation, a progress towards a better prospect,
or a striving for a better YOU that you dream to be,
in response to the changes happening around us,
every day, hour, minute or even second.

Not so long ago, I have read a very good sentence
in a blog of my friend's, he's a wise and smart guy,
he said, "Life is ever so wonderful and sorrowful.
Life is sometimes unbearable and uncontainable."
Yes, I'm here back to life that we always talk about.
To be frank, it's really funny to see a guy
throwing a wet blanket on his friend,
asking the latter one to change his life,
resign from his work for any reason.
Well, I always think that we have no the rights to do so,
to interfere with other people's plans. What for?
It's his life and he knows what is best for him.

In my case, I certainly know what I want
after failing so many people and things,
maybe I have hurt someone in the process,
I say sorry then. So sorry. Nothing than sorry.
Few more hours to the final lap,
I don't know how it will turn up,
however, I will just try my best,
for my sake and of course my family.
I hope I can get a very good birthday present
and Christmas present for them.
I know I didn't treat popo well
when she was still around, but tonight,
I hope she could appear in my dreams
and give me some blessings. HAHA. Yeah.
Shame on "ME".

HD 417

The clock on my desk shows it's 2:20am now
where I should be studying like hell actually
for the last paper of my final examinations.
Despite that, I still feel like writing something on my blog,
okay, I wish I won't come back to this room
or even this faculty after I check out tomorrow.

Even though it's a little risky to put all my hopes on that
but I more than believe that I'll eventually get it,
achieve it and hold it tight in my hands soon, very soon.
I'm putting all eggs in a basket, as a Chinese saying goes,
break the caldrons and sink the boat! 破釜沉舟。
No more castle in the air and no more tragedy.

I'm gonna miss this room, HD417,
I would say I was lucky to have owned
the biggest room in Dahlia hall with nice balcony xD

Am learning not to care about what the others say,
I live for my own and, of course, my family.

luck.

Thanks Buddha and my ancestors,
I knew I was blessed and lucky.
However, the next round is nothing
but the toughest one, I believe.
So I say, do not feel happy too early
as the unseen yet real obstruction
is still concealing behind the corner there.

Didn't sleep and eat any thing since 24 hours ago
but I don't feel hungry, it's why I call myself "Iron Man".
Patrick said he didn't want to see my at the graveyard,
yeah, I don't want too, at least not before I achieve my dream!
Assessment 3 of the diploma is over. Finals are next.
Final stage. Good Luck!

Learned something new from Jie Guan recently,
9gag is really an interesting site and I would strongly recommend it
if you need some refreshment or de-stressing agent.

waiting.

当每个人都在说那些年的时候，
我在期待Underworld 4的强势归来，
靠，他不会log也可以活得好好的，
我不看这戏也是可以活得好好的。

Feeling fidgety and restless recently,
it has been more than two weeks since last time,
but the email has not reached my mailbox yet,
the waiting is slowly killing me.
I hope it's a good news.

I hate this short semester,
examinations come every fortnight.
Good that I have 300 pages, more or less,
to flip over for tomorrow's examinations,
the last assessments before our finals,
hectic life, isn't it? And terrifying one.

Our library is really a good place for study,
even though it's not that high-class as the other colleges' ones,
at least there are some babes to see when you feel bored,
much better than moulding alone in the room, yeah,
would be better if I get to take some phone numbers :D

Dream

"Dream and give yourself a permission
to envision a YOU that you choose to be." by Joy Page.

Remember no dream is too big,
and dreaming is where the great people start with.

feeling

Same as the others, I thought this song represented a person
until this morning where I was listening to this song,
more attentively in headset, I realised it's actually a feeling,
a feeling that I can't clearly describe with words,
but it makes my thoughts and actions explainable.

Well, it sounds so mysterious, I know.
Nothing is more important than family.
And I'm not a one single-minded :)
Thanks God, I finally end the bad days.
"Boston" - by Augustana.

Looking forward to working in the airline,
perhaps I can make friends with some beautiful stewardesses :P
One more long semester to go, or shorter?
Someday, I'll be standing/sitting in front of Mr. Tony Fernandes,
my idol and mentor, saying"Boss, let's go for high tea!"

Allstar.

I believe they would have helped me
if they came to Nilai University College
one week or few days earlier.
Even though it's already late,
thanks for the talk and it made me
more determined now.

All for One. One for All.
Be an Allstar.

Will be staying in the library until midnight again,
FML, I have about 300 pages to finish for tomorrow exams.

Worried.

What the smurf!
I should have gone through the list!
They really exist! They really exist!
Starting to feel worried now :((((((

I thought my performance was still okay
but I only realized that it was shit just now.
What the smurf. What the smuft.
Help me please. Pray hard for me!

Study. Don't talk to me, EMO.

why is the sky blue?

Sometimes you won't ask so much about it
when the thing is to be in such a way
since you are exposed to it for the very first time
but have you really ever wondered why the sky is blue?

Sunlight reaches Earth's atmosphere and is scattered in all directions by all the gases and particles in the air. Blue light is scattered in all directions by the tiny molecules of air in Earth's atmosphere. Blue is scattered more than other colors because it travels as shorter, smaller waves. This is why we see a blue sky most of the time.

Closer to the horizon, the sky fades to a lighter blue or white. The sunlight reaching us from low in the sky has passed through even more air than the sunlight reaching us from overhead. As the sunlight has passed through all this air, the air molecules have scattered and rescattered the blue light many times in many directions. Also, the surface of Earth has reflected and scattered the light. All this scattering mixes the colors together again so we see more white and less blue.

I'm not sure if I did well,
at least I think I had a great conversation with them,
using my broken English and inaccurate accent,
trying my best to answer all questions which they had raised.
Okay, I admit I'm kinda boring and lame. I'm sorry :D

Good Luck, Edison.
Exams are on Thursday and Friday.
It's game time after that.
"I was much inspired by the HK drama."
"Stop watching drama, Edison :P"
"Do you have a girlfriend, Edison?"
"No. I don't have a girlfriend."
"That's why. You should get a contact lens then they will come to you :P"
They are great people, GREAT if I could work together with them.

I don't deserve the word,
it makes me feel guilty.

exams.

Woke up at four o'clock.
I hate exam weeks
but who likes it?

Study.

Eve.

大家都在现实中妥协，
只是你我需要付出的
精力，资源和劳力不同，
又有没有人尝试了解，
那200公里，2个小时，
2个收费站，加上额外油费，
维持10个月的背后。

前夕，希望明天是美丽的。
干杯，给自己翱翔的梦想。
我很想，只为了自己，
不去介意也许会被唾弃，
但我不能不珍惜那些情。

I enjoyed the run.

illness.

All things seem to be so wrong now
and sleeping problem hasn't been solved.
Living hard with a disorder circadian rhythm.
I want my fucking life back in the day.

I don't mind what the others say
because they seriously don't know
how suffering I'm.

The weather in Nilai is good today,
I hope every day is like this. I like this town.
Glad to know everyone is good.
There is a talk about volunteerism and leadership given by
the Prince of Negeri Sembilan next Saturday,
should I postpone the meeting again?
But it's so hard to get them all to attend the meeting :(

survived.

那一刻，我发现地狱
离我只有几尺那么近。
但今晚我总算活过两次。

第一次就别提了，
有关最近失调的睡眠时钟，
但还是要感谢中华舍监，
和校长室特别助理的善意提醒，
花了添油费和过路费昏着来到，
结果昏睡了过去直到练习结束，
再昏着回去还真“难忘”。

第二次就让我想骂粗口了，
差点被“大大...大炮竹”炸死去。
没错，那足以传篇整个学院，
轰天雷耳的响声，
以N个大来形容那炮竹，
是最适合不过了。
TMD差点被炸中。
几尺。几尺。几尺。

太“幸运”了，
感谢邓家祖先保佑。
也非常感谢郑郑悠，
我还在怀疑我是否
渺小到没被人发现。

没在开玩笑，
那一刻，我的魂
真的差点被炸出来了。
Nice bombing？TMD
我以后上厕所都要怕。

Pilot or Lesbian?

An old Pilot sat down in Starbucks and ordered a cup of coffee. As he sat sipping his coffee, a young woman sat down next to him. She turned to the pilot and asked, ‘Are you a real pilot?’

He replied, ‘Well, I’ve spent my whole life flying biplanes, Cubs, Aeronca’s, Neiuports, flew in WWII in a B-29, and later in the Korean conflict, taught 50 people to fly and gave rides to hundreds, so I guess I am a pilot – what about you?’

She said, ‘I’m a lesbian. I spend my whole day thinking about naked women. As soon as I get up in the morning, I think about naked women. When I shower, I think about naked women When I watch TV, I think about naked women. It seems everything makes me think of naked women.’

The two sat sipping in silence. A little while later, a young man sat down on the other side of the old pilot and asked, ‘Are you a real pilot?’

He replied, ‘I always thought I was, but I just found out I’m a lesbian.’

HAHA. The third day! OMG!
I'm a lesbian too :DDDDDDDD

Who Needs a Miracle

Seems that Tom was working local with a nervous FPL watching over his shoulder. He had one air carrier jet just touching down and another on a mile final, with a commuter holding short for departure release:“I’m going to get that commuter out between those two jets,” said Tom aloud.
 
The FPL could see that there might just *barely* enough time to make it work if nobody screwed up. But like any good instructor, the FPL wanted to let Tom make his own mistakes since that’s the only way for a guy to learn.

Still, the FPL couldn’t help but mumble in Tom’s ear “if this works, Tom, it’ll be a miracle!”Tom keys his transmitter. He intends to say “Commuter 123, taxi into position and hold, be ready for immediate.” What actually comes out of his mouth (in one of the great Freudian slips of all time) is:“Commuter 123, taxi into position and hold, be ready for a miracle.”  

There’s a big pause on frequency, and the then commuter pilot says “Tower, I think under the circumstances we better just hold short. I don’t feel quite that lucky.”


1st November, this is the another night 
where I realise something is wrong with my body,
I went to bed at 6pm and woke up at 2am, 
while the world is just silent,
and everyone is sleeping soundly.
No choices, I think I could not sleep anymore,
I switched on my lappy, did some regular checks,
started my day earlier than the others do. Sounds pretty suck.
So here I found some funny stuff, hoping to cheer myself up.
But be frankly, now I do need a miracle.

Happy. 
I don't lie, to girls :)

8 days

Didn't know why I woke up naturally in the dead of night
while I actually set my alarm for seven o'clock
which is a few hours later.
After the toilet, I tried to keep my eyes closed
and hypnotized myself again but failed.
It just made me feel very bad, even though
I already got enough sleep yesterday afternoon.
Still finding a way to syncronize my body biological clock.

Looking at the calender on my study desk,
I found out there are also 8 days left for me,
but I haven't started my preparation, HOLY SHIT.
Anyway, I'm excited, in fact, and can't wait for that day.
I'm gonna realize my dream. Nobody is gonna steal it.
My goal is clear which is to get my ass into the team and fly away.
This may sound selfish to some, but it's LIFE.
Live as we wish to live. That's all.
I wish I'm cruel, then everything is right.


TA DA! Sushi King Bonanza 2011 is back!
31 Oct -3 Nov is for all outlets in Negeri Sembilan including Nilai!
Wasabi Wasabi Wasabi :P

Good morning :D

28-10-2011

Should drive around the city at leisure,
it's not cool to require a girl being your guide,
this is rather like an embarrassment,
more shameful when you go the wrong way.
I want my passenger to feel chilled and comfortable.

Didn't eat anything last night
except a few cups of Soya and the cupcake,
but it was satisfying. I love Soya.

Luckily I always had some clothes and shoes standby in the car.
I seriously don't like being scraped with the cake and being aluba.
That's why I choosed not to revenge.
Nevertheless, the celebration was cool.
Happy Belated Birthday to both of us.

28-10-2011

The next day after my nineteenth birthday,
I feel good, though there is some disappointment :)

When every fortune-teller,
no matter Chinese or Western-based,
tells you that you are seclusive,
you should start doubting yourself,
is it true? Anyway, at least I'm still socialable.

Having a short break before afternoon's class,
thinking of going for a nap and dream,
but body seems to be uncooperative o.0
Just a random post. I like random.
There's no why, it is life.
Things come, things go.
People come, people go.

Anticipating another 65 kilometres back to the city where I live.
A good moment to enjoy being myself. with Speed & Music.

"Some think it's holding on that makes one strong, sometimes it's letting go.

Beautiful pictures are developed from negatives in a dark room.

So, if you see darkness in your life, certainly there's a beautiful picture

is being prepared by God." - A quote printed on my new water bottle.

I damn like it, it's BROS! HAHA! Trying to have a healthier lifestyle
by buying an expensive bottle, with a stupid thought that
I would drink more warm water because of that :DD
Would you do that if you were me?

tiredness kills my monday blue.

彻夜未眠后的凌晨六点钟，
一个人在芙蓉大道，
破例地，缓缓驾驶着，
My FM的阳光灿烂，
播着陈奕迅的岁月如歌，
特别的有感觉。
65公里的距离，不错，
还赶得及欣赏汝来市，
日月交替中的美丽。

又是新的一天，
希望我不会倒下，
睡不着也不是我的错。
8个小时的课，来吧。

小黄 - 上到四楼第一个遇到的家伙，
又在HD流浪了，也许在等我，
小黄是我随便给它名字。

mix

身穿T-shirt和不断下滑的短裤，
踩着一双普通的人字拖，
背着我的laptop bag，
这样的装扮走在The Gardens里，
感觉很casual还有comfortable，
还蛮享受的，虽说仪容是种courtesy，
但没有人看，穿那么漂亮没用，
最重要还是荷包有水。

最近对吃喝玩乐失去热诚。
吃-随便，喝-随便，
玩-随便，乐-随便，
可无可有，这样很好，
不会浪费太多钱，
只要坚持我的志愿就好了，
还有睡眠还是需要被照顾。
和姐姐吃了sushi各自各散，
一个人来到咖啡厅，
点了最喜欢的mocha frap，
with cream and chocolate powder，
which will never change，
at least for the time being，
开始和自己的laptop度过
这个懒洋洋的下午，
我喜欢这样的独处，
越来越喜欢。

wasabi 和 soy sauce，
醋饭和海鲜原本的清甜，
这样的combination刚刚好，
丰富我的味觉，一点点地，
刺激我的感官，突然想起
一首卢广仲的新歌 - 慢灵魂。
虽不大欣赏他的曲风，
但这歌，undeniably很适合我。 

Step by step, slowly moving towards to my dream,
which I'm eagerly wishing for,
whatever come across and obstruct me,
would be destroyed with no hesitation。
兵来将挡，将来将杀。

Level Complete

Let's proceed to next level.
Come on, give me some blessings.

ah po.

It's 1529 days since she passed away.
I don't know what's happening to me
but I miss her so badly now.
This is much worse than being emotional.
We used to be good, very good.
However, I believe it's still she
who is blessing me.

I'm a terible grandson.
Sometimes, I wonder
how she felt when I was not there at her last moment?
Or more precisely, with the absence of her whole family.
She was a great woman.

Sem 5

Time flies like an arrow.
I'm now already in Semester 5!
Only one semester left and then
I can go into the industry for On Job Training.

Instrument/Avionics System
Equipment Furnishing & Water
Aircraft Ice & Rain
Fire Protection, Lighting & On Board Maintenance


Looking at the subjects that I'm taking this semester
and the respective lecturers, I predict next two months
would be very hectic ones because the subjects are harder
and the lecturers are more interesting except the electrician.
Anyway, I don't mean to contempt anyone here.
My goal is very clear in this new semester
which is I must study harder to bring my CGPA back to normal
and make sure my first class honour is secured, that's all,
so JIAYOUS, TANG SHING KANG! JIAYOUS!
Hope everything goes smoothly!

无聊明明没重点
却要更新部落格，
就如明明没话聊，
却硬想搭讪一样。

手集团又招考了，
恭喜，我又老了。
有时候我在纳闷，
他们怎么酱有火？
我的火到别处去了。

微笑

擦肩而过 李圣杰

果然，如果要EMO，
张信哲或李圣杰的歌
还是最适合的良伴，
只是我告诉过自己，
不能，也没有必要
把自己逼入死角。
也许我天生乐观，
但科学也证明了，
快乐是可以学习的。
每个灵魂需要一个泄口，
释放不好的负能量，
怎样都好，希望大家，
可以找到一个属于自己，
更好的方法去放下痛苦。


我要身旁的每个人，
特别是我关心的，
都是快乐的。
笑一个可爱的 :)

倒数一个月。

21

Mom almost called me every night in my exam weeks,
she didn't say much but asked some questions
like what other parents normally do.
1st  Q: What're you doing?
2nd Q: Have you taken your meal?
3rd and the following..blah blah blah.
In the end the parents finish their talk
with "Remember to study and sleep early!

I didn't give much response on the phone,
since talking is not my strength, only blow water is!
However I understand this is how she cares me,
sometimes her words warm my heart.
I can't remember since when I got such feeling.
Flasing back to the days when I was younger,
her nagging would really get me irritated.
Undeniably, a lot of things have happened
and changed my attitude in the past few years.
Adults are sometimes complicated in their mind and I believe
we can only fully understand when we go nearer to that age.

Sleeping has become difficult for me recently,
unlike my roommate, now I could only fall asleep
after tossing and turning over in my bed
for at least half an hour every single night,
at times I was also shocked to find out that
I woke up in the middle for toilet
while this actually didn't happen before.
Fortunately, or unfortunately some literates would say,
I still dream everyday. (Dreaming means it's a bad quality sleep)
All these really got me feeling sick, that's why today I'm here,
I request all my friends to be my witness,
I'm going to have a new healthy lifestyle!
Call me bastard if you see me online and awake
after 12 o'clock next time :DD


Once so long ago, I read this quote from a book,
saying "Each person is interesting in his own way".
Sounds true. So as the way we treat and care him.
Bringing this statement into family and relationship, problems solved.
Don't make yourself lost in the new condition.
One should learn to lead his own life
when everything surrounding him fails,
then he will find the exit back to the track.

Yeah, mom said,
I'm steping into 21
according to Chinese Calander!

The Sky

Okay. The picture and the words below
is actually a sharing I got from my friend
who works as a pilot for Airasia.

this is something you dont get to see when travelling as passengers. And seeing this during an early morning flight brightens up your day. trust me. and this is something that motivates the pilots to keep on going with their jobs. - early morning rising sun with low clouds covering everywhere. from covering in total darkness until the moment we penetrate from beneath the clouds and seeing this view with your own eyes,it's simply priceless and unimaginable.. - My friend says.

I believe this is true :DDD
People always ask me WHY
whenever I tell them I want to be a PILOT
or AIRCRAFT MAINTENANCE ENGINEER
as my second choice of my career.
In fact I never feel bored to answer them
but I think this picture will simply talk the story.

If you know me well,
I believe you will also be aware that
I damn like the sky and the stars,
they are nothing but so significant for me,
more like a good companion which will never run away
and never fail to cheer me up when I feel upset.
It's because of them, I found my dream
and it's them that support my dream,
which is to fly up in the sky,
touch the clouds,
go nearer to the stars,
and feel the moonshine :DDD

Before I put a stop here,
I would like to share some pictures of my collection as well.

Good Luck

Good Luck, this phrase has become
a mention in my everyday speech recently.
Actually "Good luck" is a Japanese Television Drama
in 2003 which is starring Takuya Kimura(木村拓哉).
The story revolves around a young and inexperienced pilot
who struggles to achieve his dream of becoming a captain some day.
I have really got much inspiration from this drama.
beside the Hong Kong TVB Drama "Triumph in the skies".

I'm not certain if I can become one
like those pilots in the dramas,
but I will try, as hard as I can.
So Good Luck :DDD

By the way, to who might be reading this now,
it's embarassing to see "0 comments" here.
Please leave some if you could,
it would be the greater excitement and encouragement for me.
Don't make me look so pity lar :DDDDD

talking

Talking about things can be hard,
especially if they are difficult feelings,
for example, confession,
those three words look simple,
but we know it's a lot of courage
that you need to support them.

I don't really dare to talk,
so that as an alternate,
I started blogging and converting
my every sensation into words,
in a way that I think it's cool,
with a stupid assumption that
everyone would read and understand me
by reading my words,
although it's not at most of the times.

当你发现真爱就在你面前的时候，
你就会心甘情愿的当一个傻子!
一个就算被拒绝几百遍，
都不会放弃的傻子 - 《偷心大圣ps男》

Revision time. Good Luck :DDD
Final examinations of Semester 4.

I have a target that I have loved for four years.

Sometimes, I think she knows about my feeling

even though I did not confess to her "properly".

Didn't plan to do so at the very beginning because

I was afraid of losing a friend, not planning to do so

at the moment because I believe she is already in a relationship.

I suck, keep convincing myself that I will do so eventually but actually not. :DDDDDD

However, I believe she may have already got irritated and impatient

with the timidity and cowardice of the boy who have been taking 

four years to summon the nerve to ask her out :DDDDDDDD

Bro

Last Saturday, I went to send Kah Hann off.
I drove him and another six friends with my car
all the way from Sri Gombak, one of our bases,
to Low Cost Carrier Terminal, where Airasia X is based,
through MEX Highway, it was a nice journey and experience.
It has been four years since Jan Hoong migrated to New Zieland
and we are now turning into twenty.
I mean, we all have grown up and nobody cried this time,
at least I did not. However, I will miss him.
This tough guy is a real friend.He has done a lot of touching things
which I should not and cannot forget,
like how he helped me to recover from my worst moments in 2008.
Not to mention, he's the one who my mum believes most.

I hope he think I'm different.
All the best in Taipei, bro!

Two are gone. 2007 when we were still in Form 3.

3th September 2011,
after waving hand to him at the gate,
a question kept appearing in my mind,
like a bee in my head -
When is my turn to fly?
I'm becoming more desperate
from day to day. I hope I won't wait long.

-

Go for what you believe in,
for even in the darkest hour,
when all of hope seems gone,
it'll give you strength to move on.

You might feel afraid in the middle of the journey,
people always get confused of choosing the right way
but at the same time they also forget that
every new day is another chance to change your life.
As Tupac said, I only follow my voice inside,
if it guides me wrong and I do not win,
I'll learn from my mistakes and try to achieve again.

Live your life for yourself,
but not the others,
you gotta enjoy yourself,
you gotta love yourself,
no matter what you choose,
what you do.

OMG. I have been using hours
to get this conclusion.
Study to gain knowlegde,
for a better life and understanding of life.
This sounds shitty but a bit true.
ADD OIL and wish you LUCK.

Honesty

Received a call from a buddy called HARYTAN
when I was BBQ-ing in Kah Hann's farewell party
with the other drummates last Friday night.
We had a short but straightforward conversation,
we talked something really heart-to-heart, about relationship.
It's a little stupid and weird, I would say,
because this thing doesn't often occur between two scorpios
who are always said to be secretive and obstinate.
However, I have to agree that, most of the times,
we really feel we have the same characteristics and views,
I think it's all these which make us to be brave enough
to be true to each other. Yes, true means NO LIES,
at least I'm trying to keep up to this,
although sometimes we make fun of each other.
I like him (Buddy love :DDDDDD)
He deserves my words.



I might be funny,
but I'm certainly not foolish,
talk to me, while I'm still sensible,
I request for your honesty,
don't kill my last sense of security.

1037

Unconsciously, I have made it to 1037 days.
At this little moment, I think it would be very stupid of me
if I'm still unsure about my feeling and thoughts.
Should not question if it's worth doing this,
it's what I deserve because of my choice.
Say hello to the fourth year :)


< Boston > By Augustana.

People always hesitate,
because there are many ways,
they begin staying there,
let the time slips away.
Nothing much others can say,
but live in the present time,
every single second,
with your preferred way,
so take it on some faith,
move forward and be brave,
sing your songs, dream your dreams.
Your friend would be somewhere, and pray.

Rust

Sloth, like rust,
consumes faster than labor wears.
By Benjamin Franklin, former president of American.

我在害怕。
我要出国。
怎样都要搭上
这趟红色列车。
可是，该死的，
脑袋就像生了锈，
词句重组都成了困难。
大概是休息太多了。

First day - seemed to have some fire in your belly
Second day - seemed to have some changes in your personality
Third day - seemed to return to you which was in the older days.
Today - so, what's happening to you again?

I'm afraid.

I Tried To Climb The mountain Today

Author: Gary Barnes


I tried to climb the mountain today. 
As I inched my way up the path, I felt overwhelmed, so I had to turn back.

I tried to climb the mountain today. 
On my journey, darkness started to fall, and I was full of fear, so I had to return to a safe place.

I was ready to climb the mountain today.
But it was so hot outside, 
I thought I better stay in my nice air-conditioned house and rest up for tomorrow's attempt.

I was about to climb the mountain today.
But I had so many other things to do, 
so instead of climbing the mountain I took care of much more important tasks.
I washed my car, mowed the grass and watched the big game. 
Today the mountain will just have to wait.

I was going to climb the mountain today. 
But as I stared at the mountain in it's majestic beauty, 
I knew I stood no chance of making it to the top, 
so I figured why even bother trying.

I have forgotten about climbing the mountain today; 
until a friend came by and asked me what I was up to lately. 
I told him I was thinking about climbing that mountain some day. 
I went on and on about how I was going to accomplish this task.

Finally, he said, "I just got back from climbing the mountain. 
For the longest time I told myself I was trying to climb the mountain 
but never made any progress. I almost let the dream of making it to the top die. 
I came up with every excuse of why I could not make it up the mountain, 
but never once did I give myself a reason why I could. 
One day as I stared at the mountain and pondered, 
I realized that if I didn't make an attempt at this dream all my dreams will eventually die."

"The next morning, I started my climb."
He continued, "It was not easy, and at times I wanted to quit. 
But no matter what I faced, I placed one foot in front of the other, keeping a steady pace. 
When the wind tried to blow me over the edge, I kept walking.
When the voices inside my head screamed "stop!" 
I focused on my goal never letting it out of sight, and I kept moving forward.
At times, I was ready to quit, but I knew I had come too far. 
Time and time again, I reassured myself that I was going to finish this journey.
I struggled to make it to the top, but I climbed the mountain!"

"I have to be going," my friend said.
"Tomorrow is a new day to accomplish more dreams. 
By the way, what are you going to do tomorrow?"
I looked at him, with intensity and confidence in my eyes, 
and said, "I have a mountain to climb." 




I have a mountain to climb :D
By Edison Tang Shing Kang.
昨夜异常地从睡梦中惊醒好几回，
第一时间拿起手机察看时间，
忘了自己何时开始怀疑自己，
每次睁开眼睛，心会慌，
然后想我是否睡迟了，
因为之前过多的错误，
间接失去了自信心。
在生活的十字路口徘徊，
必须小心考虑每一步，
山顶或山脚，我的生活。
怎样都要不断向前踏步。

纵贯线 - 亡命之徒

我們都不必在意未來的樣子
像是精神病患寫的詩
或是煙花綻放的節日
隨它去吧 我們都只活一次
呼吸呼吸呼吸 呼 一切曳然而止
真理在荒謬被證實以前
都只是暗室裡的裝飾
只有當眼前亮起來了以後
才有機會彰顯它的價值 不是誰能決定的
該漫遊還是衝刺
我們都在海裡
我覺得我們像沙子
你說的亡命之徒
是不是大概就是這個意思
出發啦 不要問那路在哪
迎風向前 是唯一的方法
出發啦 不想問那路在哪
運命哎啊 什麼關卡
當車聲隆隆 夢開始陣痛
它捲起了風 重新雕塑每個面孔
夜霧那麼濃 開闊也洶湧
有一種預感 路的終點是迷宮
出發啦 不要問那路在哪
迎風向前 是唯一的方法
出發啦 不想問那路在哪
運命哎啊 什麼關卡
當車聲隆隆 夢開始陣痛
它捲起了風 重新雕塑每個面孔
夜霧那麼濃 開闊也洶湧
有一種預感 路的終點是迷宮

 

 

only those with dream and passion deserve it.

Truth

There are many aspects of the truth we hide from ourselves, because they would make us uncomfortable or necessitate change, sometimes truth that you believe is actually what you would like to hear, that's why people say there is no truth, there is only perspective, perception and individual logic.You, yourself, are the way, the truth and the life.

You believe? It's truth.
Don't believe? it's shit then.

Dreams

Everybody dreams.   Everybody dreams. Children dream, Adults dream, Old people dream. I dream, too. I dream about the friends with whom I'll grow old, I dream about the person whose hands I'll hold, I dream about being young and in love, I dream about loved ones, looking down from above. I dream of the places I'll one day see, I dream of being wild and free, I dream of my house, high on the rocks, I dream of the sand underneath my socks. I dream of the people I'd love to greet, I dream of the things I'll say when we meet, I dream of hearing their voices sing, I dream of being happy with everything. I dream of travelling with a map in my hand, I dream of never coming back to this land, I dream of finding myself - in sense I dream of jumping far off this fence. I dream of any things that one day I'll know, I dream of the freedom: a dream I won't let go, I dream of my future and marvel at my pride As my heart is flying and singing inside. Find me a corner, Let me dream for thousands of years, dream my life, as the poem implies.  Sometime, somewhere, somehow, for some reasons, I dream, about  someone, something and some dreams. The destination is only one, but the roads diverge in many sites, though we try, bitterness of life, can't be avoided, with sigh, and lies, we pretend to be high, say bye to the cloudy sky, bring yourself back to the line.  I won't be destroyed :) Another exhausting week this is. He and she, she and he, he and she, she and he, I don't wanna play. That's all. There will be a right moment, when it's not polluted. Oh right, call me 邓颖糠, and 邓兴糠 already died.

4th day(Doer)

You don't know
how desperated and thirsty you are
until you open your eyes wide
and have them imprinted into your eyes.
 
Go for it.

Grasp it.

Never studied at all today
but gained a little change
to my stupid mind-set.

The clock shows five to twelve,
where I should shut off my lappy,
freshen myself and go to bed.

Stepping into the fourth day.
"Proposal has been made
which the objective is to,
without a doubt, fly the poor guy up :D "
A detailed plan is what you need next. 
Stay tuned for more stories about
the building of my dream.

Doer vs Thinker

我自认悟性高，但遗憾，
有想法和实现想法，
完全是两回事。
我还需要学习，
尽管失败了多少次。

Look at the Maslow's Pyramid.
It's what I should be achieving.
Be a DOER and make things happen,
YOU ASSHOLE THINKER.

First day. A brand new day
with new way of thinking.

15/6 (2)

It is with our deepest regret to inform you that you were unsuccessful...




 
As what I had expected,
good news didn't come to me eventually,
I'm now one step further from the gate,
but it has strengthened my determination :)

15/6

282th. 15/6/2011 Wednesday 0133am
I did really learn from the lesson.

I switched off the light, at half past twelve,
tried to fall asleep, on my bed with the blanket,
but somehow, I failed, couldn't fall asleep.
It must be because of the super duper
long nap that I had taken yesterday afternoon,
I said, softly and guiltily.

Transfered from my notebook(Not blog)
Chance is only once. It's either you hold it tightly in your hands or let it go like the bubbles that children blow, consequently, they burst and disappear in the air. forever. It seems that I screwed it out again, by wasting the chance. Nothing much I can say, while it's my own fault. Say goodbye, even though you don't wish to do so, sometimes, you still have to. Looking out at the window, the birds, they are flying high, like they will never come back. 3/6/2011 Friday 0145pm

Gonna shut down my lappy,
and try to sleep again, second try.
I need a second shoot, what I need
is a second shoot, please please please.
Ready for the bad news.

281th

13/6/11 Monday 1:05am

手集团首次邀请海外演艺团体，
 与中国“八大槌”共同呈现的
《日月杵音》圆满结束了，
除了星期四的开幕和首演，
我共做了四场的前台人员，
更准确地说，是撕票员，
及负责监场带位的引座员，
如同上回，从其他伙伴那里
共享了不少的欢乐，
即使有人不在队伍中，
也有“熟悉的新人”加入。

但怂恿我来这部落格扫尘，
还是我本身的工作表现，
星期六晚上，悠问：
原来你有给自己评分的啊？
（遗憾加对自己少许失望）
我只给自己一个60分及格，
最大的弱点就是不醒目，
只会等待指示，或则不知所措，
例如：Disabled door早开了，
不是说什么想太多麻烦自己，
是觉得有反省，有回顾，
才会发现错误，得到进步，
这次，又学到东西了 :D

最后一场，就只有perfect，
当场有种奇怪的感觉，
不清楚，不是后悔，
是觉得，我应该
还可以做些什么，
很想继续和这队伍成长，
除了打鼓以外，
还有一些事情，大概
是我可以做的，是吧？
我想探讨更多，更多。
手集团和中华接着的活动，
若可以，我希望我会在。


我不喜欢往事重提，
let the pass go by,
now control your present,
and build your future,
chattering is useless,
but time is wasted.

Still, Boston is here,
my heart is there,
the feeling is weird,
dream high, fly high.

Be more considerate!

AirAsia Now Everyone Can Fly T-Shirt
AirAsia 100 Million Passengers T-Shirt (Male Cutting)
AirAsia Plane T-Shirt
AirAsia Been Around The World Male T-Shirt
AirAsia Slim Mouse with LED Light
AirAsia ''Remove Before Flight'' 
AirAsia 3D Puzzle Plane
AirAsia Rotating Plane Watch
AirAsia Exclusive Lat Plane Model A320 (Scale 1:150)
AirAsia Aircraft Model A340 AAX (Scale 1:200)
AirAsia A320 Model Aircraft (Scale 1:150)
AirAsia A330 Model Aircraft (Scale 1: 200)
AirAsia A340 Oakland Raiders Model Aircraft (Scale 1: 200)
Malaysia Airlines Triple Fridge Magnet & Free Plane Key Chain Set 
Malaysia Airlines Triple Key Chains 
Malaysia Airlines Aircraft Model B777-200 Freedom of Space with Landing Gear and Stand (1:200 scale) 
Malaysia Airlines Aircraft Model B777-200 with Landing Gear and Stand (1:200 scale) 
Malaysia Airlines Aircraft Model A330-300 with Landing Gear and Stand (1:200 scale) 
Malaysia Airlines nübyplane™ Backpack 

Buy that, buy this, wow this, wow that,
Why do they promote so many things
while I'm now actually saving up for my trips?
There are just some kind of irresistable temptations.
The sad thing is the currency and
expenses in Singapore is high, very shit,
approximately RM700 for 3 days 2 nights and flights,
RM2.40 buy SGD1. Gotta IKAT PERUT for months.


Singapore Airshow, I'm coming =)

感觉依旧

驾车回家的路上我说，
这篇一定要用华文写，
才可以完整地表达
此时此刻我的想法。

明天实习生考二团，
我没有在里面，
有时候我会觉得自己
放弃的理由很牵强，
虽说主要是因为
我想专注于学业，
其余都是因为我的不坚强。
有些朋友说很可惜，
我说是的，可惜是必然，
但我选择了就不后悔，
从另一方面来讲，
拿回了周末一天，
时间表也变得比较易调性。

之前有在犹豫是否
要打中华明年的公演，
最近开会却十分积极，
我大概把它当成是个结束，
也算是一个新的开始，
过后就大概不再打鼓了，
会以别的形式继续推动
表演及艺术的发展。
也许我说的头头是道？
其实也只是兴趣，
听过祥国的想法，
也有想参与的意思，
本身也从来没忘记
自己的志愿是要在空中翱翔。

今晚的会议绝对是有意义的，
虽然曲目的事情未被确定，
我们聆听了更多的意见，
成果自然就会更好，
这个队伍就会更强，
我说不怕，因为我们有
20年的人海做后盾，
when I say it,
I really mean it :)
大师兄番来啦，感觉依旧，
说真的，我怀念往日，
小小的鼓室， 墙上的涂鸦，
大大碗的一扎绿茶加蜂蜜，
高层6人组的虎克与牛顿，
程辉家大伙儿开会的日子。
现在？大概只能在旁边高唱
我是一只老~老~老~老~鸟。

无论如何，
希望那6位仁兄明天考试顺利-2团！
也祝自己明天拿成绩good luck
爱情不再关我gao,
我还是开心看“广告”:)
哈哈 我真不想开学，
我很多梦~很多梦要发，
很多很多。

Empty

As the topic says,
it's empty, almost,
a lot of words have been typed actually
and then deleted without much hesitation.
I was even thinking that,
leaving it blank may be the best way
to expresse my feeling at the moment.
Stay calm and let Jay Chou's songs to
fade your smiles away, I should have know,
I have no chances at all.

Hooray for my doom day, yeah.
It's time to take my results of last semester
again tomorrow afternoon,
I hope the results are still in the level,
CGPA, don't drop please! First class!
*Praying to Buddha for some blessing ><

Oh yeah, good luck to them,
Hands Trainee 2011,the six guys,
who are having Hands 2 examination
tomorrow morning as well!
It's always good to know
you guys are doing well
although I have left the team,
GARYAO!


Have been trying to write something deep,
but I find it's too difficult to describe them in English,
sigh, let it be, let it be :)

A few words

Have been diving for a while
because of the mountains of exams
and also the overwhelming exhaustion,
well, it's finally over now, my semester 3,
let me to use a few words and some pics
to talk the story I have been through these few weeks.

So, it's back to semester break again now,
but I can say, nothing changes,
I'm still struggling hard,
no much time for me to waste,
EASA exam - Aviation Legislation paper
is on tomorrow morning,
after that is the first interview
with the "Red" in June,
Maths, Physics, English, see?
There are really quite a lot of things
that I have to prepare, not to forget,
IQ Questions ==
 
By the way, recently, I'm developing
"aircraft spotting" as one of my hobbies.
For that reason, I already went to the airports
not less than 5 times, and the lakeside near Runway 32R,
since I came to Nilai University College.
It's fun. Though I'm not a professional photographer.
Anyway, a million thanks to family for everything
and also my senior, Michael, for teaching me all these =)

Oh yeah. For the other fourteen guys,
we have known each other for years,
we have been together for years,
we have played together for years,
truely, I believe we can continue this for years also,
let's garyao, show the world our Blooming 20!
I will give you my heart, can you show me yours?



Emm. It's hot recently,
drink more water, my friends =)

Special

Sometimes I don't like roses
because they are just too common.
I want some special
because you are special.
No reason.

Thanks to Ah Fai.
So it's confirmed now?
My last. End up at the place
where I started all about.

Few hours before finals,
but my heart is not here,
Amitabha =(
Can't wait to go spotting,
Aircraft spotting!
Can't wait to go Taiping
to get my new name.
I want a special name.
Cooler than 兴糠. Please.

Can't stop

So it's 12'o clock now.
I'm at the common room,
with the company of some college-mates
who I don't know and are rushing their assignments,
there are a lots of questions in my mind,
after being stimulated by someone,
yet I'm quite happy because
I feel some changes which are good,
somewhat I think, around me.
Still the same I believe,
we can't change the facts and the people,
so that we change ourselves to
adapt to the environment,
though it might not be sensible for someone,
since everyone is different. Whatever =P

Won't stop pursuing the zen of my life,
with not to restrain myself from the
"principle of life" because
there is no theory, no absolute,
no right and wrong in my world.
Why blame the others?
for the thing that we can't control it.

Yes, the renovation of the toilets
on my floor is almost done,
hope people can treasure and
not to make them dirty again.
Flush after using the toilet xD
A 5-stars toilet I am expecting.

Oh Yeah, thanks to my cousin
for getting so much information
about piloting for me from her friend's father.
And I super duper like the saying,
the success of a woman is not evaluated
by how much she has earned but
how her children behave and become.
Nice one, I hope my mom will be proud of me
one day as well, really really =D
Sisters are doing well recently
which I should follow and learn.

Can't stop blogging.
Can't stop going.
Can't stop here.
Before I reach the crest.

Never give up." Naruto says

3rd

Third assessments start from Thursday!

Been trying hard to cencentrate on revision,
but the brain cell seemed to be not functioning,
so here I come to write something,
hoping that taking a short break will help me,
as the saying goes, 休息是为了走更长远的路.

The night is beautiful,
the wind is breezing,
the cakes are delicious,
the coffee is good,
but I'm feeling bad.

RAWWWWHHH.
This will be a stressful week!

Great day

How long has it been

since I last sat on the balcony,

humming alone,

enjoying the breeze,

under the gentle moonlight

and starshine?

Having talked a lot

with two of my cronies today.
What a great day =D

Though it ended up with

an exhausting assignment.

Schedule/Wish List:

Preparation for assessment 3 (5 Subjects)

Preparation for the interview

Purchase some new spectacles

Clean the car

Go spotting ( KUL, SZB, PEN, BKI, SIN)

Attend Langkawi International Maritime and Airforce Exhibition

Attend Singapore Airshow

Sigh. Somebody gotta help me.

As you can see, there are really

tonnes of work waiting to be done =( 

The  things that I am worried at most

are the assessment and interview.

Yes, may god bless me, okay,
I just wanna to pass my Meterials.

Tell me, if I can do it ><

Why is it that no matter 

how many times I remind myself 

that we can't be together, 

I still won't let myself 

fall for anyone else?

I would rather choose to close,

If the thing is meant to be so. 

I really thought I could get a reply.


ANDＩWANNA GO CANADA!

  

Iron Man

People always put themselves deep in thought
where actually there is no such necessary,
they might have a lot of thoughts in their mind,
however, perhaps thinking too long or too much,
the outcome often becomes the things undoing,
and even makes people slowly losing their faith in life,
so at the time when the problem really comes,
these people will eventually choose to escape from the reality,
yes, you may be saying there, COWARD.

The statement above was not raised by any expert,
but is a humble and silly opinion of mine,
at least, I think I am the one,
HAHA, more stupid I feel that I'm
after writing all these,
anyway, with no other meanings,
sometimes, we have nowhere to go,
we have nothing to do, and,
we can't deny the facts
that we are not happy with,
or the mistakes that we have done,
instead of that, we should learn to master it,
like what Al Franken said,
"Mistakes are part of being human.
Appreciate your mistakes for what they are:
precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way.
Unless it's a fatal mistake, which,
at least, others can learn from.


Binoculars are in hands,
air-conditioner and the tyres
of the car are getting changed,
what else could I ask for?
Yes, a big thanks to them,
my dear parents and sisters,
my source of motivation.



Again, never forget your dreams.

Lets be an Iron Man,
to flight maturity and prepare
for the brighter future,
life goes on.
坚强的男人=)

Only you

So finally I bought the two very first books
concerning to my ambition as a pilot
at Kunikuniya,KLCC last Saturday.

Two of them cost me RM220 in total,
quite expensive you might think there,
but believe me that it's already the normal price,
in this high-technology aviation industry.
Like most of the professionals tell you,
it's worth paying for the knowledge,
the only prerequisite is to make sure 
"You will read them until the closure!"

Anyway,I am just so excited at the moment,
can't wait to start reading them,
I wish I could finish them before June 
because I will be having my CPP exams
at that period of time too ( I guess so =P ).
Yeah,a million thanks to my dear sister,Joyce,
for accompanying me and treating me
a meal of "Sushi King" there!

Just want to share a nice quote 
from Mr.Tony Fernandes,
the well-known CEO of Airasia,
before I end my post here,

"Believe the unbelievable, 

dream the impossible and 

never take no for an answer."

The journey in front might be challenging, 
but still, we have to move on, step by step, 
because we have a dream. 

Never forget your dream.

Only you.
No more girls.
No more drums.
Move towards the aviation
and operational crew sector !

甲乙丙丁ABCD

自从上次的活动以后，
大佬的话偶尔会浮现
在我脑海里，
但我不加以思考，
渐渐，我陷入了我以为绝对
不会发生在自己身上的迷茫。

不清楚我在这条路上，
是否还能继续走下去，
但另一边厢，有一种感觉，
在慢慢扩大，悄悄地，
像是理想侵和兴趣的抗衡。

如大佬所说，必须了解
自己要的是什么，
对未来的画面，我很清晰，
想在航空业大展拳脚的意愿，
越来越明显，更加浓烈，
尤其是最近我已经开始
为亚航的CPP考试做准备，
所以我不能容许一点的差错。

突然想起面试的时候，我说，
会走到毕业出来工作为止，
在想，继续还是选择舍弃。
或者说是，放弃是迟早的，
是以后还是现在？=(

我从来没想过当职业。
如果只是为了兴趣，
差劲的自己留下来
又会不会累人累物。






闲-咳嗽咳到傻。
恨不得再有几天假期，
然后买张便宜AA机票，
飞去哪个山芭避世去。
Rawh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Things on List 2011 ! xD

够爱

《够爱》东城卫 + 曾沛慈

我穿梭金星 木星 水星 火星 土星 追寻 
追寻你 时间滴滴答滴答 答滴声音

指头还残留 你为我 擦的指甲油 
没想透 你好像说过 你和我 会不会有以后 
世界一直一直变 地球不停的转动 
在你的时空 我从未退缩懦弱 
当我靠在你耳朵 只想轻轻对你说 
我的温柔 只想让你都拥有 

我的爱 只能够 让你一个 人独自拥有 
我的灵和魂魄 不停守候 在你心门口 
我的伤和眼泪 化为乌有 为你而流 
藏在 无边无际的小小宇宙 爱你的我 

昨天应该是第一次，

睡一下，咳嗽一下，
咳嗽一下，睡一下，
咳嗽一下，睡一下，
睡一下，咳嗽一下，

这样的动作不断重复，
使夜晚显得格外漫长，

不能说是被折磨，
但那霎那，
我有这么一种感觉 -
期盼有谁可以听我倾诉，
理解我烦躁的理由。


极度需要假期，
来调整身体还有心理。

陳乃榮-召喚獸

我愿做你的召唤兽 陪你闯危险的宇宙

期待你有一天回头看看我
当你真的躲不过诱惑 我安然地放手
再回到角落狩猎你我永远的以后
我愿做你的召唤兽 一生配合你的要求
不能够忍受你 可能失去我
当你疲倦坠落的时候 能抓住我的手
哪怕是只有一秒的梦 也值得追求

终于把《终极三国》看完，

剧情是废了一点，

但我承认还是有

那么的一部分，

精彩及引人入胜， 

当然也许是我容易被满足， 

真的有被你杀死，曾沛慈，

今天，我走感性路线 =）

随“心”所欲地

用“心”体验生活。