Let's climb.

It has been more than a year since I last visited my own blog.
During this one year, I always had something on my mind
but I was either too busy or too lazy to manage them.

Remember I said that I was officially a Second Officer in my last post?
I'm now a First Officer, one rank up, with two bars on shoulders.
Next step would be Senior First Officer, in order to achieve that,
I have to collect 1500 hours to unfreeze my Airline Transport Pilot License.

Anyway, I just read something meaningful the other day
which I want to share it with my fellow friends.
I'm not going to repost the whole article as it's a bit long.

"I tried to climb the mountain today"

I have never laughed at anyone's dreams.
I know there's a difference between
those dreamers and non-dreamers.
I think that having a dream is the greatest thing in life,
but if you dont't make an attempt at this dream,
the dream will eventually die.

Let's climb. Climb the mountain today.
If you just did, do not let it stop, keep moving forward,
because there's always another mountain after another to climb.

I will be back.

Second Officer

"You know how difficult life could be
after stepping into the society.
There are times that you will feel depressed,
because of someone, something or some situations
which you don't see them coming,
however, you will still enjoy the process
if it's something that you have always wanted."

At an age of twenty-two, financial commitments which I'm having now
are actually considered a lot, and more to come,
it might be a little bit stressful, but I'm motivated.

Yes, I'm a freshman now,
training as a second officer to be the co-pilot of a commercial jet.
Growing up is essential, competency needs to be achieved,
knowing that I will have to take responsibility for hundred lives.
Just can't wait for the day where I can change the one bar to two bar.

Fighting.

Hey 2014

Having been silence for so long,

I finally decided to start my first post of the new year.

Initially I thought the subject of the first post should be a "resolution" one

but I hadn't had much special experience and thoughts in the past one year,

what I did and where I went was all about my flight training,

head is full of something else at the time I'm typing on the keyboard,
so I changed my mind to share about my recent life like what I always do.

Things have been great since I last updated this blog,

I cleared the last paper and completed the simulator training,

I'm now one step closer to getting my commercial pilot licence,

but I must not be too relieved. 

Collecting 25 hours on the twin engine aircraft is not easy 

as the number of cadets has outnumbered the number of aircraft

and it should be expected that a lot of time will be wasted
because of the approval for flight test..

The good thing is that the flying schedule is more flexible now,

I don't need to go to the hangar if I'm not scheduled to fly on that day

unless someone asks me to stand by. (Btw, no-one likes to be on standby)

At least I have more spare time in the twin engine flying phase.

My camera has been staying quietly in the drawer for almost a month.

It's now the time for the cameraman to make his return.

Oh yeah, Maxis internet connection has become very slow in KB lately,

I'm not sure what has gone wrong, however, it's not going to beat me down,

thanks to Izzan's YES 4G, I have no problem with my drama marathon.

(I guess it's not a good news to my housemates, I make too much noise,

but I'm not over excited, I'm just too into the story.)

It's 4 o'clock in the morning, I think I'd better stop here.

Year 2014, I hope you would be an awesome one.
To be continued.

KBR again!

Yes, I'm back to Newcastle.
Nothing much has changed in Kota Bharu,
the monsoon seems to have stopped already
but the food still sucks, life is still boring,
imagine how I feel after being detached to Terengganu
and Ipoh, I had to come back to this place again.
Anyway, I'm gonna start my simulator training for
the twin-engine aircraft soon and
below is my new toy for the next two months.
The Diamond Twin Star DA42!
Bolehlah, take it as an early introduction to joystick.

You can't solely depend on someone or something
for happiness, freedom from boredom or as a stress reliever. 
Never let it become a living habit of which you cannot get rid 
before you're prepared to suffer for losing them. Never.
Alex said I was too serious, no girls will like that.
Maybe. 

No longer single

Even though it took longer than what I had expected,

I finally completed the single engine flying phase on 11-12-13.

Million thanks to all instructors and friends who had given me 

a lot of guidance and help all this time.

What's waiting for me next is the simulator training for twin-engine aircraft.

Flying in Ipoh was fun, no complain and regret.

Pretty much experience I have gained and 

it's certainly one of the best memories 

I have got in the flying academy.

No longer single,

I'm now complicated,

stepping into the two bars club.

Outlet.

Everyone has their own outlet for feelings.
I thought I had found mine but now
it seems that I have to work harder on it.

Weather is not good,
same goes to my mood.
I was sad yesterday, sadder today,
and gloomy days ahead.
Never mind, man man lai.

Pain

We all have problems,

what makes us different is the way we solve it,

no matter how you deal with them, 

accepting them is always the first step to start with,

denying their presence will just pull you deeper into the abyss.

Yes, life is painful sometimes but
what hurts us also makes us stronger. 

Pain is meant to wake us up and brings us to the reality,

it's a kind of wealth which makes us better to hold and cherish

everyone and everything that we have.

So why are you afraid to feel the pain,

which is a part of you?

Hiding them doesn't fix things.

Only by understanding your pain,

you could get rid of it and sadness.

Breathe in deeply and you'll realise that you're not that weak.

Rush

Two papers,
40 hours for single engine,
55 hours for simulator and twin engine remaining.
Now please tell me that I could finish the course by Chinese New Year.

There're too many things I want to do and change about my life,
but I have no initiative and don't know where to start.
How about keeping the to-do-list away until the 21st birthday?
It's an excuse but at least I could be free and happy for few more days.
Rain, you'd better be gone by early November like what the press reported
because I want to fly maximum hours!

A friend of mine told me that I had changed recently.

I've been thinking and wanting to write something about it since then. 

I thought changing was necessary to grow up. It always is.

Without changing, you won't know what you actually want. 

Everyday we come up with some new thoughts, 

so your perception doesn't really matter to me.
I have never, I don't and I'll never care how others see me.
That's who I'm.

Keep calm and it's Scorpio season.

Sociality

They say all human beings are social,

I'm not sure how true this statement is,

I think some people are just naturally more socialable than me
I've always been trying hard to be one like them. 

However, for me, being social doesn't necessarily mean making more friends,
what I'm pursuing is more to break out of my comfort zone

and feel proud for other people's achievements.

In fact, the first part actually seems a little difficult to me 

as I'm over protective and less talkative sometimes

but the main point which I want to bring out is 
please be assured that whenever I say something,
be it congratulations, sorry or whatever,

I really mean it deep in my heart because I never do things for protocols.

If you think I look cool or LCLY,
probably you don't know me well enough.
Anyway, the life is a non-stop learning process.
I'm still learning. Criticism and praise are always welcome. 

Falling for it

Most of the times,

we know it might be impossible,

we know it might be false,

we know it might be a trap,

but we still fall for it.

People are always willing to pay

for what they have wanted or believed,

even though it's only a little convincing.

They wouldn't give up until they get the sour grapes,
until they feel a strike, a pain, in their hearts.

The money is not a big deal to me,

I hope you're not conning me,

otherwise you'll rot in hell,

because you just made use of

your mum's health to get my trust. 

I'll still pray for her anyway. 

Kindness is my weakness. 

Seeking for a stronger personality,
I'm enough with the "OK man",
I don't mind being mean if it's needed.