Falling for it

Most of the times,

we know it might be impossible,

we know it might be false,

we know it might be a trap,

but we still fall for it.

People are always willing to pay

for what they have wanted or believed,

even though it's only a little convincing.

They wouldn't give up until they get the sour grapes,
until they feel a strike, a pain, in their hearts.

The money is not a big deal to me,

I hope you're not conning me,

otherwise you'll rot in hell,

because you just made use of

your mum's health to get my trust. 

I'll still pray for her anyway. 

Kindness is my weakness. 

Seeking for a stronger personality,
I'm enough with the "OK man",
I don't mind being mean if it's needed.

Heartbeat by Enrique Iglesias

Thanks to Alex,
I'm so addicted to this song now.
Its lyrics might not be exactly the same with my situation
but it doesn't matter as long as I'm feeling good about it.

I can feel your heartbeat..
Your heartbeat..
Feel your heartbeat..
Stop stealing my heart away.
Stop stealing my heart away.

Stop stealing my heart away.

You're stealing my heart away.

Experience mood swings these few days,
emotions and obsessions about someone or something
are pouring out, stronger than usual.
Just like women, men are emotional creatures too,
however, we are not that lucky to always have someone
by our sides ready to talk to, so I talk to the stars.

Just a sharing

I couldn't remember exactly how long I have been blogging. 

Like anyone else, I was so excited with the first few comments that arrived,

yet after some years, blogging has simply become one way of life,

it's a medium which I could write my stories and release my emotions.

Seriously, I don't mind if there's no people reading my blog anymore 

even though I do appreciate some good comments sometimes. 

I might not be a professional blogger like adameben 

but I'm glad that I started blogging and 

it's certainly one of the greatest things which I have ever done.

So, since I won't be scheduled to fly these few days,

I'll take this chance and try my best to update this blog as often as I could.

Okay, it's enough for nonsense.

I just read something great and I thought 

it might be useful for everyone on their travel to the road of success.

The quality of the photo below is not really good

but please bear with it as I actually downloaded it from Facebook.

It's actually fourteen ways of improving ourselves:

1. Read every day

2. Learn a new language

3. Build your own space of imagination 

4. Conquer your fear

5. Upgrade your skills

6. Write a letter to you for future

7. Acknowledge your own weaknesses

8. Act immediately

9. Learn from those who you admire

10. Reduce the use of the Internet

11. Create new habits

12. Let the pass be a pass

13. Fragrance clings to the hand which give flowers

14. Always have enough rest

From John Dryden,"We first make our habits, and then our habits make us"

It's always good to create new habits to give you the life you desire.

Anyway, there's something that he didn't tell us, which is:

It takes 21 days at least to form a habit, not easy huh?

Just like someone doesn't appear on your mind suddenly.

Starry Sky by Mayday :)
Sorry that I tend to feel uneasy on a night like this.

ha! Such a random post.

People change

People change, no-one stays the same.

Everyone has a different way of thinking

and we all change our opinions all the time. 

It hurts but I have no right to complain

because I do sabotage also at times,

so I'll act like a dumb pretending it's okay,

learn from it and remind myself to be

more humble and nicer to others.

Again, through months and years,

we'll know who are worth being friends with.

I might be a good listener

but who could listen to me 

when I have something in my chests to get off. 

I mean someone who I could trust. 

Dreams

It's always important and good to have a dream in life
to keep us motivated, working toward something that we wish for,
but you're not the only one who has dreams and goals,
that's why I don't usually admire those who only have dreams.
If you have a "workable" dream, you must pursue and protect it,
it's insignificant and it'll just stay a dream forever
if there's no any action being taken about it.

My boss has a famous quote that goes "dream the impossible",
however, not all dreams are worth chasing,
I personally think those who have a lot of commitments,
and believe in "Having a dream is everything",
are taking relatively high risks, even though we all know that
paying high prices and making sacrifices couldn't be avoided in chasing dreams.
Well, that actually depends on how you measure success.
I'm not the kind of person who would give up something
which I have been doing well for years and considered a success
for something new and difficult which I don't know much about it
especially when you've come to an age of almost half a lifetime.
You may do well if the job is your interest but you may not.
Still, they have got my respect, at least they're doing something.

We have to plan for the future,
make our decision while we're still able to make choices,
that's what we need to ponder over,
not to make ourselves regret,
because passion is nothing if it's spent on something useless or when we get old.
I know of no better definition than that of Thomas Carlyle
who defined success as "continuous progress toward a worthy goal".

Sometimes, we need to be more realistic.
Let interests be interests while we're still able
to make a living with what we've achieved and what we could get more.
Last but not least, don't tell me that you want to be a lawyer/doctor/pilot/whatever,
do enlighten me what you're going to do to become one someday!

TGG

So this's my second night in Terengganu.

I have settled down and familiarised myself with places around.

As expected, there's nothing much here,

the town is far away from my accommodation

which couldn't be reached by foot,

luckily there's a sea and some restaurants nearby

to hang out with the boys.

Just before I came, someone had told me that 

everything here suck except flying,

I actually agree with it now.

Food is worse than KB Crew Residence,

same goes to the accommodation, 

I have to plan something for spare time

before I get bored with the sea and airport.

Anyway, I've determined to do all my best here,

hoping I can leave this place by September

with some wonderful memories and a CPL.

How to concentrate while you keep poping up on my mind. 

I don't know if I'm pushing too far or I'm not trying hard enough

but I mean to keep you by my side, at least as a close friend,

so that I have someone to share all my joy and tears with 

and I have a strong feeling that you're the right one,

that's why I'm playing safe. Just gotta sober down.

*Blogging at 5 o'clock in the morning 

after watching "The Apprentice Asia".

I guess I couldn't sleep already 

unless I could make myself tired because

apparently the best timing to sleep has passed.

Lesson from the first episode:

Bringing members who are stronger than you 

to the board when someone is to be blamed

is the silliest mistake ever. You can't escape

from taking the responsibility for the failure

but it's not done by committing suicide and giving up.

Leaving the weakest in the team won't help the team either.

Lesson from the second episode:

Never compromise when you think something's wrong

or you have something better to solve the problem.

I knew Hanzo'll definitely be fired when he asked Sam to shut up. 

Maintaining a good communication and linking between members is essential,
for me, it''s cockpit gradient and crew resources management.

A man of contradictions

I want to be the best at everything

yet I'm afraid of failure at times.

I want to keep a low profile

yet I hope people think I'm great.

I want to have character and style

yet I'm lazy to make some changes.

I want to make more awesome friends

yet I'm not going to open my heart.

I want to get more readers here

yet I don't feel like sharing the link out.

I want to tell her how beautiful she is

yet I seriously lack of some courages. 
I want to get some attention
yet I don't want to be friendzoned.

I suppose the saying's right,

life is never free of contradictions,

that's what makes our behaviour 

so maddening and yet so fascinating. 

Went swimming with Alex at Renaissance at night just now.
We also didn't forget to enjoy the Jacuzzi and Sauna
before leaving for dinner at the Mat Spicy House.
Maybe I would blog about it when we go next time.
It was a great swimming session anyway.

Okay. I'll end this post here.
It's half past two in the morning.
Sigh. Maybe the night owl is me instead.
I want to go back to KL and this impulsion is getting stronger
day by day together with my mixed feelings here.

Two more.

Exam week is done!
I have two remaining papers
but at least I could temporarily say good bye
to those thick books and test preps until June.

Performance: 90
Mass and Balance: Congratulations
Operational Procedures: Congratulations

Results were good, I only regret that
Performance didn't come up to my expectations
because I was confident in the theory part,
maybe I tabulated one of the graphs wrong.
(Performance is a subject about airplane performance)
Anyway, to my surprise, I found myself enjoying
the group study with my batch mates this time.
I'm not trying to take credit for their success
but sharing knowledge with them and
seeing them pass the exams did bring me some satisfaction.

Okay, let the past be the past.
I have to concentrate more on flying
and boost my flying hours from now on
to graduate from this place as soon as possible!

I don't stay up for no reason.
I don't stalk for no reason.
Even though sometimes there's no reason.

Love Somebody

Have been playing this song over and over
since I woke up yesterday.(Yes, it's yesterday
because it's half past one in the morning now)
Anyway, like all previous posts which I have published recently,
this post has no any special hidden meaning
but I just want to note down my feelings
and say how much I'm in love with this song now.
Maroon 5 never disappoint me.
The only wrong is that they don't have an official video
for this wonderful song on YouTube yet.

Sometimes, the lyrics and the meaning don't matter,
the song just haunts you for months,
it's the same with how you can't get your crush out of your head.
Pictures or words, I just want to do some recordings,
keep track of my moods or perhaps
let someone know something that I might not want to tell her/him directly.

I really wanna love somebody

I really wanna dance the night away

Hopefully there's no another round.