i feel you

爸：你肚子饿了吗？
答：我不知道。
爸：你自己肚子饿不饿，你不知道的咩？

原本只是不经意地回答，
却意外地被爸爸点醒，
如果他没有问第二句，
我也不会发现到，
我还真的差点忘了，
忘了饱和饿的感觉，
过后我很努力去回想，
仍然搞不懂这样的状况，
到底是什么时候开始的，
吃东西大概渐渐变成了，
一项我一定要达成的任务，
不管每天睡到几点，
不管那天做了什么，
不管家里有什么食物，
我就是一定要吃，
一天的标准是两餐，
如果还没吃，就要吃，
如果吃了，就不再吃，
现在回头仔细想想，
这个定律好愚蠢，
大概只有我这蠢人，
才会有这样的习惯。
值得庆祝的是错有错着，
这突然改变的饮食习惯，
好像让我最近变瘦了。
也有一个不小心的发现，
在草草整理了思绪以后，
做出了这样的小结论，
做什么事情都有感觉，
是感觉带领我们重复动作，
是感觉让我们判断对错，
一旦失去了那感觉，
事情就会做不好，
哈。这听起来好废。
算了吧。。只想说。
以后我会好好把感觉留着。
所有事情的感觉。
和一些人的感觉。

Edited some words form Avatar-I see you
And I said : I feel you

Err….Haunting by some queries recently.
After seeing and knowing something that happened around me..
Actually the doubts may not be serious,
But quite vexing…i think..
Should I do some changes??
Some changes to make me become mature.
Some changes to make my parents feel relieved.
Some changes to make me more like a 17-year-old boy.
Hah..It is quite hard to tell everyone at here.
Anyway..there is no need for my friends to worry me.
I am fine..fine..emm..at least not bad..
And then I think I should change my fashion’s taste too…
don’t want look like a lala zai any more : )
as to my hair that I love ?? Emm….
Have to consider to cut my fringe
Before happy new year because
My mum have many complaints about it.
Know that I always worry her.
I’m so sorry about this too.
She has paid so much for me.
So..i shall not disappoint her again.
Right?I am trying to be more.
@Knowledgeable?
@Ambitious?
@Independent?
@Enthusiastic?
@Nice?

However
saying is always easy.